Love, Your Daughter

Dear dad,

About 7 months ago you were arrested, I was told a month after you were arrested that you were going to be in jail for 7 years I'm now in 8th grade and in 2 years I'll be graduating 9th grade your going to miss my 9th grade graduation,

I just started school 3 days ago and the night before the first day I held a picture of you in my hand and cried, This is the first time I've  started school without seeing you the day before.

When I was born you were in jail and you missed my birth after that you promised me you wouldn't ever go back!,

You told me that I saved your life!,

That i was the reason you weren't in jail anymore!,

That you would never go back!, 

You lied to me.. last year 2017 I started self harming,

You were supposed to be there!,

You were supposed to be my shoulder to cry on,...

But you weren't.

You were off doing drugs and getting high,

This year 2018 I tried weed and it made me feel nothing....and that's what I needed the cutting and burning stopped working but I was addicted my then so i couldn't stop,

The weed helped for a little while until it didn't..

And then boys came into the picture there was one boy that I fell in love with his name is mason and he breaks my heart every time i trust and fall into his arms,

I have tried multiple times to kill myself,

but you wouldn't know would you?

No...you wouldn't because you chose your drugs and your girlfriend and friends over me and my sisters and that's what I will never forgive,

your going to miss 7 years of my life my 12th grade graduation,

getting into collage, maybe even finding the love of my life,

And that's on you...

Love,

Your daughter.