Love, Your Daughter

A letter to you

its now the end of 2018,

the boy i fell in love with hurts me, he punches me as a "joke" he calls me a bitch and a cunt and tells me that im a failure and a  disappointment i have bruises from him all over my body, 

i started dating someone else tho his names Reden he treats me amazing he calls me stunning and treats me like a true princess.

you dont get to meet him you dont get to know how i feel about mason how heart broken i am about him being so mean to me and how in love with Reden i am and how i know now how im supposed to be treated and how amazing it feels to be treated right.

you dont know anything at all, you dont know that i haven't stopped cutting or smoking or hating myself.

but Reden helps he has helped for the past month but you also wouldn't know that either you wouldn't even know that im dating him you wouldn't know that mom had to call the cops on her now ex boyfriend because he was mentally and physically abusive you wouldn't know anything at all,

you wouldn't know that i still care about mason (not in that way anymore) but he hates me and it kills me but its probably better off because i always hurt the people i care about,

you also wouldn't know that i try to make everyone hate me so the when they leave just like you did i wont hurt as much......it doesn't work but im still trying,  

and im trying without you its your fault i haven't seen you in almost a year your going to miss my birthday.. again and if your not good and stay out of peoples way then your not even going to see me graduate jr high,

this is all your fault and yet im still blaming myself for all of it 

Love,

your Daughter