I can say that it's been a while since we last spoke
but that would be a lie
I have been happy
but you still lurk behind the curtains
you still torment at night
and in the day
You still break my happiness on a sunny day
you make me cry inside way from the pain
that longing for has never been so clear
wanting to do better to never feel you again
My heart fall weak to the idea
of never feeling joy again
to never enjoy the things that make others happy
why do you attack me so
I try to get out of your way
but it seem as if I cant get away
I'm weak again as if my wafers was a waste
falling back to the downward depression
I wonder has it came again
I gave it it's space why cant I get mine
This is all I can get is depression
