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I NEED HELP BITCH!!!

hey queens!!! i'm coming on here real quick to rant a lil bit and get some advice from y'all because i seriously don't know what to do and i'm on the verge of fucking dying so please respond and help a slumped sister out!!!

so there's this boy (i'm smiling so hard just thinking about him right now omg)

so a little back story before we start.

so my first day of school was august 15th and on that day i walk into my first period class and it's only like 8 people in my first period class. so when i walk in i'm not paying attention to anybody because helloooo victim of being socially awkward!!!

but i walked in late because of a schedule mishap and i sit down, the teacher gave out work already. FASTFORWARD to the 2nd day of being in that class, the teacher going over shit in the textbook and asking hella fucking questions (annoying as hell i can't stand that nigga) and this guy is answering all of them with no hesitation i'm wtf so i look back at him and SIS I MELTED HE'S FINE AF!!! i was already crushing like 5% then the week after i start crushing more and more like real shit!

let give a brief description of him. he's a junior (i'm a sophomore wtf) his birthday is like a month after mine and his name starts with a A so we'll call him A. he's tall, light skin (ugh light skins i know) and sis his face is just everything to me like when i see it i just want to melt!! and i love the way he dresses like he dress so chill and he doesn't seem like the type of guy who tried to act hard or like everybody (i hate niggas like that it's so unattractive like just be yourself you bum ass nigga)

but here's the problem... i'm fucking scared to talk to him!!! like i've literally never spoken to him before and he hasn't even tried to speak to me so i feel like he isn't even checking for my sophomore ass.

like i'm crushing hard af and all i can think is "girl you might as well stop with these feelings because he is not checking for yo ass he won't even fucking look at you half the time girl"

we pass each other in the halls all the time and there's been a few times where he would look st me but most of the time he does i be staring like hell istg y'all

i'm really hoping he isn't talking to anybody or doesn't have a girlfriend because every time i see him he's by himself but bitch that don't mean shit. he better not be a hoe either because if i find out ima be pissed...

but this is where i want to die: this nigga got his class changed!!! so now we don't have any classes together anymore!!! WTF

see, this is exactly wtf i get for being a pussy ass  bitch and not finding the courage to talk to him or give him a sign or something!!

so we don't have class together which won't give me a chance to talk to him, we don't have any of the same lunch periods and there's no time to be stopping in the hallways to talk to
people soooo my chances have been blown.

i've been trying to get myself to get over him but I CAN'T BITCH I WANNA GET TO KNOW HIM SO BAD BUT I'M SO SOCIALLY AWKWARD AND AFRAID TO TALK TO PEOPLE THAT IT HAS RUINED MY CHANCES!! ugh why am i like this?

but yeah y'all wtf should i do?
at this point i think i just need to get over him but i feel like he could have been perfect for me!! of course i didn't know him well at all, i don't even know his last name so i sound like a fucking crazy bitch but i just don't know how to control my feelings.

i would even dress cuter than normal for his ass and then he goes and gets his class changed 🙄 i'm pissed y'all seriously. but it's my fault for always expecting the guy to make the first move. i mean, he probably doesn't like me back but still. and i'm ALWAYS quiet af i literally never say a word at school unless i'm being talked to and people tell me that i always look mad so maybe i'm unapproachable??? idk

but y'all please help me 😩