I love you ✉ | Jinsoo Short Story [COMPLETED]

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I can't take it anymore. Every passing day makes me feel crazier than before.

I was always told, don't get envolved with boys and focus on studies but I broke that rule and now I'm paying the price.

Is breaking that one rule really this bad to the point where my life is a living hell?

Do I really deserve this?

This is what happens when you get too attached to someone.

Everything is too hard. It's to much to deal with. Maybe I was strong at one point to deal with this but that time is not now.

I hate my life. I hate myself. I would say I hate you for making me feel this way but my stupid heart won't let me.

Maybe I'm like this because for the first time in my life when i met him, i felt that I finally had someone.

Someone who understands me, someone who wont make fun of me, someone who can actually make me happy but all I got was a big slap in the face by reality.

I have lost a majority of my friends. I don't know why or what I did but now they are all talking bad about me.

I feel so lonely. I have no one to talk to and I just want this hell to end.

But what's after the ending?

Happiness?

I fall too fast, crash too hard, forgive too easily, and care too much.

The demons are back and stronger than ever. They are looking for a fight, and this time, I might just let them win.

Something inside of me tells me to stay strong and keep fighting but how do I do that when I feel like I have already lost?

Im not okay, i'm just good at pretending I am but im also tired of that.

I've heard a lot of places that there will be many good moments that will outweight the bad ones but for me, the best part might just be the ending.

I have the power to choose how my story will end,

and I think I just figured it out.