11:25 {Why Don't We}

thirty-eight

2:39 a.m.

"Who would have thought you'd be here all alone," they said

"I'm not alone," I said

"Look around, he's gone, he left you,"

"He'll come back," I assured them

"What makes you think that? You were a burden to him,"  they spat

"No, no he loved me,"

he loved me, he said he loved me

"Then why did he leave,"

I don't know I don't know I don't know

Why did he leave? Where did he go?

"I don't know,"

Why isn't he here?

Suddenly I felt myself hit a surface, my eyes fluttered open and there I was on the floor with tears in my eyes once again. I rolled over and faced the window on the ceiling. It allowed me to see the sky. The stars.

The stars that are millions of miles away from me but still felt so close. They were like glitter, sparkling in the sky. The same sparkle I would see in his eyes. His eyes.

Green? Gray? Blue? No, of course not. They were brown. Not an ordinary brown. His brown eyes were different. They made me feel things. Things I could never feel again. I need to be with him again. I need to feel his hair in my fingers. I need to feel his hands intertwined with mine. I need to find him.

I need to know why he left. Was it me? Or was it him? No, it could have never been him. It had to be me.

I need to figure out what I did to drive him away. Make him leave me alone. I need to speak to my mom.

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