11:25 {Why Don't We}

twenty-nine

"Well?" Asked Zach

"How did you find this place?" I asked him

He looked at me for a moment and then at the lake.

"I'll tell you when you finish telling me how you don't know who was your best friend," he said

"Are you sure you want to know?" I asked him.

I haven't really told the story to anyone except Kevin. Then after getting comfortable with Jacob, Mark, and Lilly, we told them together.

I'm not sure how he will react or how what he'll think of me, but I guess you never know until you try.

"Yes I want to know," he said

"Okay so, I remember having a best friend, that's for sure but I'm not exactly sure who he was or what he looked like, aside from being a guy and having straight messy hair.

Well, actually that's how he looks in my dreams and flashbacks. But anyways we were inseparable since uh, I think some grade in middle school because my parents were still married back then.

Either way, when they divorced, he helped me. He always cheered me up. You know that best friend everyone wants, that's who he was.

But then, some school year this one girl made up a rumor. She said that he and I were together. At the time I think I was like 14 so that shook me.

I was told day to day that, he doesn't need me, I wasn't pretty enough, popular enough. In general, I just wasn't enough.
But, he made sure I didn't feel like that.

Later on, my parents did divorce and I was bouncing from house to house, except I didn't want to stay with either of them.
My mom blamed me for my father not loving her and my dad just didn't give a damn.

So, he took me to his house when I didn't want to go home. I remember him fighting with his older sister once because of how he made me sleep in the same bed as him when we used to sleep over.

Anyways, once he left I fell apart. I didn't have anywhere to go or anyone to talk with.
He wasn't there to protect me or make me feel better.

The bullying became an issue again, this time because they said he left me for other girls. They knew I wasn't enough and that proved it.

Then my dad became aggressive with all the drugs he took. By then my mom already started another life, which was perfect. She didn't want me near her. She didn't want me to ruin her life again. So, I stayed away.

This is the part that I wish I never got to.

I decided one day that I've had enough of everyone so, as you can imagine I jumped off my roof.

Fortunately, I survived. I stayed in the hospital a little over 3 weeks trying to gain my memories but since my parents never met my best friend and I didn't have anyone else who knew him, I just forgot about him.

Until two months ago, I had a flashback while I was visiting an old park. At first, I thought it was part of a dream, but it felt too real.

So, that's the full story on how I forgot pretty much his whole existence,"

I look at him to see him looking at the lake.

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I'm grounded