The story of my life.

Chapter 3; Cheaters Suck.

Ben & I went strong for about a month but then we decided to see other people & ever since then we'd been on & off for about 9 months. He dated other girls. I dated other guys. He'd beg me to take him back & I would. Every damn time. We were together for another 5 months without splitting up but then we got a new girl. She was so pretty & skinny & perfect. A few weeks later, there was a rumor going around saying that Ben cheated on me with the new girl, Cara. Ben did cheat on me. My best friend was there when it happened & not to mention that about 5 people had pictures of them cuddling & holding hands.

"What the hell Ben. You cheated on me?" I screamed through the phone.

"Babe, no what are you talking about I would never do that. Please, just calm down." Ben pleaded.

"Don't fucking tell me to calm down. You dirty fucking man whore!! Really? With the new girl! Really? How could you! You are the biggest dick ever." I hung up on him & stomped up my bestfriends stairs. I ran into the bathroom & locked myself in there. I found a pair of scissors & just dug & dug & dug into my skin. I've always been sad. I've always been suicidal & fucked up but I've never bled. There's always been bruises, scratches & welts. But I've never bled. It felt good. It felt good to feel numb. I wanted to feel numb. I walked to the kitchen & grabbed all the pills I could find. I took sleeping pills & I think some pain killers. I ran into her bathroom & locked the door. Kourtney came & started pounding on the door. I remember seeing the door fly open & that's it.