Broken (A Niall Horan Fan Fiction)

Chapter 12

Broken

*Lindsay's P.O.V.*

I told him I was going to bed, but I stayed up all night thinking of what to do. Should I tell Niall or not? If I do, what do I say? He will probably want to just be friends. I have to tell him. I can't. What will it do to him? Will he stay with me? Will he come back to be with me? How do I respond if he does call us off? By the time I realised I had been up all night, my alarm went off. I picked up my phone and called Niall. He picked up and said a few things before I told him. "I'm pregnant," I sobbed. The other end of the phone went silent; I had expected this but I really don't want to know what he'll say when he picks up the phone. "Niall? Are you there?" I heard him pick up the phone and he said in a shaky whisper,"Are you sure?" "Yes," was all I could say before I heard Niall say,"I need some time to think about it. For now let's just be friends." "I'm sorry Niall," I said as I hung up. I heard him start to say something, but I don't know what it was. Aunt Lucy knocked on my door and came in. "Oh Lindsay," she said as she sat down on the bed and pulled me into a comforting hug. "I knew he would break up with me. It's just harder than I thought it would be," I stuttered. My phone started buzzing but we both ignored it.

*Niall's P.O.V.*

She didn't pick up her phone and I just left a message. I cried myself to sleep; something I hadn't done in the longest time.

*Lindsay's P.O.V.*

"You will always have me, no matter what happens. I love you," my aunt said as she looked me in the eyes. "Aunt Lucy? Do you think it's possible to love someone so much that you literally feel like your heart is breaking to the point where you can't live anymore?" "I think it's possible to love someone with all your heart and when they break it you need someone to give you a reason to live. Like the baby," she said as she put her hand on my stomach. "But I don't know if it's even Niall's. It could be Harry's. Why did I sleep with both of them? I need to tell Niall that too." "If you do, you will break his heart and he will feel the same."

~Monday~

*Lindsay's P.O.V.*

Niall still hadn't called me and I asked if I could take my exams early. Surprisingly, they let me take them that day and I asked if I had to be at graduation or if they could just give me whatever they needed too. They said they would grade my tests and if I passed, I could skip graduation. Niall still hadn't called me and I couldn't stop staring at my phone. When i got home and sat on my bed, I listened to the voice mail from Niall. "Linds. I love you. Don't forget that. Even if I'm with another person, I love you. Don't cry because of me. I don't like being the cause of your tears. If I don't call you within the next week, know that I love you but-" "beeeeeeeep." The voicemail cut off before he could finish his sentence. My phone rang and I saw that it was Liam. "Lindsay. Why is Niall crying? He won't come eat. Why is he so upset? What happened?" "Stop asking me questions Liam, please. I told him something and he broke up with me. And before you ask what it was that I told him, he'll tell you. Just promise me you will tell him to do what's best for everyone?" "Okay. I will. He loves you Lindsay, I hope you know that." "I do. I have to go. Bye Liam." "Bye." The phone beeped and I turned it off. I hated that I was the cause of HIS tears. Why did I tell him? I'm completely broken. I don't want to live anymore. If he doesn't call in the next week then I'm going to die. I curled up in a ball and cried until the tears wouldn't fall anymore. I knew I would have to eat so I dragged my feet over the hard wood flooring and stumbled down the stairs. I heard someone clear their throat and said,"Just let me be sad." I turned around and saw someone that wasn't my aunt. "Maura? What are you doing here?" "I was in town and I thought I would visit you! Niall told me that you two were going out and I literally jumped for joy! Why are you sad?" Her saying Niall's name made my eyes fill with tears. I blinked and one slowly ran down my face. "We broke up on Saturday. It was my fault. And no I didn't cheat on him. I could never do that," I lied to her. I couldn't tell her about Harry. She would be broken too. "I'm so sorry babe. What happened?" "I told him something that I really shouldn't have. He probably won't ever talk to me again. Even though it's his..." I said the last part in a nearly inaudible whisper. "I'm sure he will. You know, I always wanted you two to be together. But maybe it's just not meant to be. It's possible, but god forbid, you find someone that you like more than Niall. I always wanted to call you my daughter," she said as I started crying silent tears,"Niall is a fool to let you get away. You are a special girl Lindsay. And I heard what you said. He's really stupid not to support you. If he were here I would smack him and yell at him for being an ass." "Thanks Maura. And I know he doesn't want his career to be ruined by a baby. He is only 19 and I'm 18. We are too young to have a kid." She wrapped her arms around me and said,"Come on. Let's get you some food. I'll make you some spaghetti. How does that sound?" "That sounds wonderful." She really is a second mother to me. "Maura, can I move back to Ireland with you? I know Niall won't like it but I really want to be closer to you," the words were out of my mouth before I could think it through. She turned around and smiled. "I would love that. Plus, I don't want to have to travel all this way to see my grand-baby!" I laughed and sat down across the island from where she was standing.

*Niall's P.O.V.*

When I woke up on Monday morning, Liam and Zayn were staring at me whispering to each other. They startled me and looked at me with a look I couldn't read. "What is it?" "Why won't you talk to Lindsay? What did she tell you?" Zayn asked. "Did you talk to her?" I said with a little bit of anger in my tone. "Yes. But you need to make up with her or something because you have been sitting on your lazy ass unless we are recording. And even then you aren't doing your best," Liam said sternly. "Fine. You wanna know what she told me? Okay. Fine. I knocked her up. She's pregnant. There's a bun in the oven. Is that what you wanted to hear? No? Well me either!" I replied angrily. Both their jaws dropped to the floor and their eyes got wide. "How did this happen?" Zayn said. "Do I really need to say it? I was stupid. But she's better off now that we aren't together," as I said that I started crying silent tears and Liam put his arm around me to try comfort me. I shook his arm off and saw the hurt in Liam's eyes. "No Niall, she's not better off. She NEEDS you to be there for her and even if you can't be right next to her, she needs you to be there to support her. It's your kid Niall. At least tell her you care about the kid. But do what you think is best for everyone." They left the room and I sat on the bed staring off into space. I hadn't said it out loud but after I said it I knew it was the stupidest thing to let her go. I picked up my phone and dialled her number. The phone rang and I heard her say,"Niall?"

*Lindsay's P.O.V.*

My phone rang and I looked at the caller I.D. "Niall?" I asked as I answered the call. "Hey baby girl. How are you?" I walked out of the house to the front porch and sat down on the porch swing. "I thought you would never call me," I said with a sigh of relief. "I couldn't not call you even if I wanted to. I'm sorry about that. It's just a huge shock to me and I want to be there for you." "I'm going to fly out there on Thursday. I was going to even if you hadn't called. By the way, your mom is here. I told her and she said you were stupid to break up with me." "But that's why I called. Will you be with me? Forever? Will you be mine?" "Yes I will Niall. But I don't want to get married until we are completely sure that we can raise a kid, somehow keep it a secret, and that you can manage work and family." "I wasn't thinking about getting married right now! Somebody's an eager beaver!" he said. "Im rolling my eyes," I said as I rolled them."Can I call you right back? It will literally be 2 seconds." "Okay. Bye!" I pressed end and a few seconds later there was a FaceTime call from Niall. "That was 5 seconds," I said with a scoff. "Oh whatever! Can I see Mom?" "Hold on. Let me go inside. Maura Niall's on the phone. Thanks for the dinner by the way!" I said as I handed her the phone and sat down to eat my pasta. I could hear them talking but couldn't make out what they were saying. I started humming Moments subconsciously, probably because I had been listening to it on repeat for the past few days. I finished dinner and told Niall's mom that I was going to start packing. She was still talking to Niall and I overheard him saying,"I didn't mean to. It just happened. I don't even remember her name." I wasn't going to get mad when or if he told me because I had done the same thing. Except, I knew his name and I wanted at the time to do it. Maura brought me my phone and I started talking to Niall on my laptop. I plugged my phone into the charger and set the laptop up so he could see me. "So I'm going to be there for as long as you'd like me to be. And as long as I will be willing to stay," I said as I folded my skinny jeans and put them into my pink leopard print suitcase. "You can stay as long as you'd like to. But the only thing I'm worried about is how we are going to keep your stomach a secret once you are really big." "Easy. Your mom said I could stay with her so that's what I'll do. Do you think I'll need anything dressy? Or no. Should I bring a bathing suit?" "Lindsay! Calm down! You can bring anything you want to! We are going to be in Florida next week and it's pretty hot down here so I suggest you bring a bathing suit so you can wear it while it fits!" "I'll make sure to bring the smallest one I have. Just for you. But oh wait. That won't be happening!" I said sarcastically. My phone started to ring. "One second," I said, holding up a finger to Niall as I answered my cell phone. "Hello? Oh hi Ms. Baxter! Yes I'm doing well how about you? That's good. Really? Wow! Thank you so much for the call! I'll see you tomorrow to pick my things up! Okay. You too. Bye!" "Why was the college councelor calling you?Are you two on a first name basis?" "Funny. She just wanted to let me know that I got all A's on my exams! I'm graduating tomorrow! Well it's not a ceremony but you know. I'm free!" "No college?" he asked me with a small smirk. "Funny. Yeah cos with a kid whose father is an internationally famous superstar I can totally go to college and take care of the kid!" "I have to go. We have sound check in an hour. I'll call you after! Oh yeah and I'll set up your flight for tomorrow instead of Thursday! I love you bye!" "I love you too," I said because he cut me off from me trying to protest his paying for my trip. I looked at the clock. It was 9:45 and I was extremely tired. I guess crying, having your boyfriend's mother randomly visit you, packing for a god knows how long trip, and finding out that your boyfriend will still be there for you even though you're pregnant can take a lot out of a girl.