The rebel family

I want to be me again

NOPOV

Ezra sat in the nose gun holding his teddy close as he looked up at the stars. He went to go speak but nothing came out of Ezra's mouth and that made him want to cry.
'Why am I so broken?' Ezra thought, that question had plagued his mind for a while but he never really thought of an answer to match it. He jumped off his seat and walked to the common room slightly not knowing that Ashoka and Sato were there discussing something with the crew.
Ezra's eyes widened in realisation and he started to whimper. He was about to run off when he felt Hera pick him up.
Hera smiled and so did the rest of us when Ezra just buried his face in Hera's chest.
"Don't worry Ezra your not in trouble, how would you like to go on a mission with the crew?" She asked softly.
Ezra looked up at Hera and then at the crew. He thought about it for a second then nodded.
Ashoka and Commander Sato smiled
"Well then.. I'll get you the coordinates.. oh and watch out for the Purgill there.. apparently they're dangerous.." Commander Sato said walking off whilst Ashoka gave the ghost crew the coordinates.

//time skip//

Ezra sat on the seat at the cockpit gun below Hera and heard whaling sounds. He looked confused and jumped from the seat walking to the window putting his hands on it whilst looking through space.
Hera noticed this and sighed. "Ezra Sweetie why don't you come here I don't want you to get a cold.." she said softly.
Ezra heard the sounds of tie fighters and teared up running to Hera holding onto her leg thinking it was the inquisitor after him and Kanan again.
Sabine looked at Hera sadly and ran to the cockpit gun shooting at the incoming tie fighters.
Ezra whimpered and looked down. "Sorry.." he mumbled to Hera.
Hera sighed and lifted up Ezra holding him close while she flew the ship closer to the base.
"You ready to help daddy?" She asked softly but looked confused when Ezra shook his head. "Why not?"
"I just screw up..." Ezra cried and buried his face into heras chest. 'I want to be me again...' Ezra thought but didn't know kanan could hear him through the force.
Kanan heard Ezra's thoughts and sighed sadly asking Zeb to mind the gun. He walked to the cockpit and sat next to Hera and Ezra.
"Ezra I'm going to give you to kanan now your ok alright?" Hera said and sighed when Ezra didn't reply. She passed him to kanan.
"When is this going to end Hera.. he's been like this for months.. he does screw up our missions a lot.." Zeb said through his com.
Ezra heard what Zeb said and teared up more and started to shake whilst sobbing. "I'm sorry!" He cried and held onto Kanan earning sad looks from kanan whilst Hera and Sabine glared at Zeb from the cockpit.
"Hehe whoops..." Zeb laughed nervously
"Whoops indeed.." Hera growled through gritted teeth

//during the mission//

Kanan looked around frantically for Ezra but couldn't see him at his post.
"Where's the kid!?" He shouted to Sabine and Zeb.
"Isn't he meant to be at the gun!" Zeb shouted a bit worried.
Not long after they were worried Ezra held onto a purgill as they flew up high into view wanting to help there friend.
The crew gasped when they saw Ezra's state, he looked very week from the lack of oxygen.
Once the purgill got close kanan managed to grab Ezra and went back into the ghost allowing the crew to set back to the rebel base.
Ezra whimpered and looked away. "I'm sorry..." he muttered as tears fell down his cheeks.
Kanan sighed and held Ezra close. "Ezra you connected with the purgill and saved us.. why are you sorry?"
Ezra just whimpered in response causing Hera and kanan to sigh. Not soon after Ezra soon cried himself to sleep.
"Hera the kid is fully broken.. when is he going to be him again..." sabine said a bit worried for Ezra.
Ezra whimpered and held onto Kanan's shirt nearly waking.
Hera said goodnight to the crew and went to Kanan's cabin with him and Ezra.
"I've heard his thoughts Hera.. all he is saying is 'I wanna be me again'.. he isn't improving.." kanan sighed sadly and lay on the bed with Ezra sandwiched between him and Hera.
Hera smiled sadly and got out a recent drawing that Ezra drew.
"But he still has hope..." she said sadly.
Kanan looked at the picture and smiled sadly. It was a picture of him, Hera and Ezra all stood at the Lothal communication tower saying victory at the top. Kanan presumed that this is for after they defeat the empire.
"As long as we all have hope.. we will all last... I'm sure of it..." kanan said and him and Hera fell into a peaceful slumber Un aware of the future ahead.