Taniya's POV
As I woke up i see that he isn't even laying down with me so I get irritated and sad I was hugging the bitch ass pillow ...im on my period so who could blame me? I get up looking for him. Godddamnnn these cramps hurt I want to cry. I go downstairs looking around the corner looking for him nowhere to be found so I go in the garage my car was there but his wasn't. I get annoyed as I walked upstairs checking the bathroom again nowhere. Where the hell is he?
I want my fucking boyfriend. I had to cool off I was getting mad irritated cause the motherfucker isn't here and didn't bother writing a note or anything a Morse code or a fucking davinci code ohhh I'm going to punch his ass in the dick. But I miss him I wanted to lay on him all day but nooo the asshole just has to go missing right?
I hear my phone ringing just now realizing it's been ringing since I woke up. I answer "ma'am?" She fiddled with her phone then put the phone to her ear." iikhwanikum qadimun liltahaquq min 'anak taqud jyrmyn ela alrghm mn 'ana walidak fi aleamal alan."
I say "nem mam wadaeaan." I hang up then I go shower ugh this shit hurt. I take my clothes and my woman material then I shower."Where the hellis my husband. Maybe he getting everything sorted for the wedding. Hmm or maybe he regretting this shit so he going somewhere to get away from me." I grab a pad nope no tampons shot is so uncomfortable plus it makes me feel like a mini dick is in me at all times. I call his phone12 times in a row no answer at all, Baby what the fuckk. Where is he? I start tearing up wanting my boyfriend's hugs, kisses, I miss his voice.
"This isn't fair." So start texting shit to his phone.Aftera while of telling him how much I miss him I take a deep breath. Fuck this I'm going to sleep. When he comes back I'm going to kick his ass.....if he does come back.
I put on his big ass red Nike hoodie then I put on his boxers and I get in bed . I lay down looking at my phone on my side. I hear the front door open I get up and run downstairs damn near falling trying to get to him. As I get down the steps I see my tall tattooed boyfriend carrying bags. I stop and look at him I'm sure he knew he was about to catch hell.
"Where the hell have you been nd what have you been doing?" Jamal just looked at me in the eyes and walked right past me. For some reason that shit hurt so much. I turn around and walk behind him following him in the living room he sat down. I looked at him , I was trying my hardest not to cry. What did I do to you? Why he just walked past me?
I walk over to the black leather couch and i sit on the other end wanting to get near him but not really wanting him to tell me to move or something. I pull my feet under me on the couch I lean my head on the back turnt sideways looking at my nigga. I wanted to hug him so bad but I have no idea what is wrong with him?
"Baby what's wrong with you ?" He looked at me and smirked then he laughed. I felt my self getting mad but I just stayed quiet "ok" I mumbled. I watch him take the stuff out the bags he bought a bunch of shoes I get up and I walk away. Going in yo the kitchen I open the door grabbing a pink lemonade hoping it would take some anger away. I started to get anxious oh no Not again. "Jamal .uhh....help....can't....breat..." I was trying to run in the living room but my anxiety was getting the best of me. I fell to my knees trying to breath. Crying and trying to breathing it felt like my throat was closing.
I look up and watch him walk around me then my vision starts going black ..my arms tire out feeling like jelly I collapse...
As I open my eyes I feel warmth and comfort . I look up to see my bf is holding me on the bed with his arms wrapped around me."Please wake up Taniya wake up baby come on baby wake up. " I pull myself up using his shirt. He looks at me as I try to get up he sits me on the bed then he shakes his head walking downstairs. I noticed I had wet spots on the jacket.....wait he was crying.
But I thought about it he walked around me when I couldn't breath before I passed out so he had some explaining to do. I storm downstairs walking into the kitchen I push him hard causing him yo stumble back but I didn't see the knife laying beside him on the counter he turns around trying to catch himself he ends up running his hand over the knife I heard it go into his hand. Omg the sound was so sickening. Like ripping soggy jerky.
But as mad as I was I didn't care at the moment. "Why did you walk off when you saw me on the floor? Like I thought I was dying and you just walked past me I even said help me you fucking asshole."
He turns around slowly he looks at me with the most scariest look in his eyes. I watched as he pulled the knife out his hand slowly without wincing or flinching. ....I made him mad.oh well.. "First off"....wow shit his voice got way deeper.. his voice gets deeper when he's mad.I step back."I was walking around you so I could get some hot water to run over a rag so I could put it on yo neck to calm your breathing but when you collapsed I ran to you . "
"Yeah but you act as if you didn't care." He puts his hands over his face in frustration "ughhh if I didn't fucking care I wouldn't of picked you up I wouldn't of tried to relax yo body to calm you I wouldn't of fucking spent 20 minutes trying to wake you fucking up.but ight I don't care right."
He walks towards me then turning sideways as to make sure he doesn't touch me as he walked past me. That made me feel disgusted with my self. I hear him walking upstairs. Then I hear the bedroom door close. Wanting to apologize I walk up there but i hear him talking to himself or that's what i thought."If I didn't care i wouldn't of cried the whole time begging to make sure you were okay but this is the thanks I get."
I didn't know how to respond I walk away from the door going down to the living room. I get a blanket out the closet and I just lay on the couch.
