Taniya's POV
I wake up in the morning looking up seeing his tattoos is right in my face I rub my hands up his chest to his face "morning baby"he looks down at me
"Morning princess" It's crazy how you can stick with somebody through being cheated on no matter how much it hurts.
~~~~~~~Flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~
Sitting up in the middle of the night around 4 im steady looking around the room wondering how my bf is sound asleep after he just shot somebody in the head.
Hmmm Imma check his phone he never let me hold i anyway he must be hiding something from me
I reach in his shorts pocket and grab his phone then I remembered he don't lock his phone.I click on imessage I swipe down past my name rex and ty I see some girls name Maria,tia,china,shaniya in his phone .I click on Maria I see nudes and then I scroll up more I see her say she enjoy his dick buried in her Monday ..
So u mean to tell me he has been ....cheating...on me
Please be a dream ..no ...no no...nooo
Please not again I don't want this to true ....
Why do every guy I get with cheat on me?? ....
Tears start pouring as I go through the rest of the girls my heart hurts more and more with every message I read ....i didn't know I made it so bad for him to fuck this many girls ...i turn towards the edge of the bed and I bury my face in my hands and cry harder then I've ever cried
I love him and this is what i get in return he is the first man I've ever loved with all my heart why me ???
Am I now good enough.....He might leave me ...
I feel him moving on the bed then I feel strong arms around me I knew it was him "what's wrong with you baby ?"
I push him off me just knowing how comfortable him hugging me makes me breaks my heart. I let this man break down the walls I put up for every nigga and he still did the thing I put the walls up for .
"Y....what did I .....w..why did u cheat on me? What am I not doing?is it cause I won't let u fuck me? I'll let you please i don't want you to cheat on me I need you man ?what did I do wrong? Why u leadin me on if u don't want me Jamal?" I cry harder my voice cracking ...
He gets up and grabs me he looks at me with a evil look I've never seen on anybody's face before "It's not you shut the fuck up crying I cheat because I like fucking and I didn't want to force you to do anything you didn't want to do plus I'm not leadin you on ...you make me happy I love waking up seeing you sound asleep on me I love waking up and cooking you breakfast w/o you idk how id function through the day.you have my heart my soul my love. I know I fuck on you and shit but promise you they don't have my heart or my love I only want to be with you Taniya "
"So why u wanna hurt me rn" eyes hurting from crying shaking in pain of heartbreak.
"I'm pissed cause you think you did some wrong you are the most perfect gf ever you are a dream come true in the one who isn't perfect I'm the asshole not you you do your part I promise"
Feels like the same shit everybody else told me ....lies...i hate this.....why me.....i do my best.....i don't deserve this.... it's time to be a woman....
I wipe my face then I punch him as hard as I can in the face and I keep punching and punching
He just stands there letting me hit on him not swinging not stopping me or anything......
"Why you letting me hit you ?"I'm confused
"Cause I'm wrong for cheating on you"
"I've been cheated on by every nigga I've dated i just want to be loved Jamal"
"I do love you baby I do "
I mean it's obvious he does I guess him being in the streets it's obvious he's going to fuck around and be an asshole as long as he comes home to me every night and loves me then I guess I'll just have to accept everything that comes with him regardless cause I don't want to be without him
"I'll sleep on the couch downstairs or the bedroom couch "
Feeling sad again
"Nooo baby please lay in the bed wit me "
"If that's what you want then okay " He looks confused
"Its Cause your the first man I've ever loved I can't be without you baby even though it hurts being cheated on I can't be without you in my life I really love you man I want to be without "I tuck my head into his chest and let my self fall asleep
~~~~~~~~~~~Present~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"What you doing today?" Looking at him curiously
"Get some head... "everything else afterwards blurs he said that shit on purpose. Knowing it was gone piss me off " ok" I get up and I take a shower letting this hot water soak my body to cool me off .
"Such a asshole and he wonders why I'm so crazy it's his fault " getting out the shower I grab my vs lace panties I walk into the bedroom putting them on instantly his eyes shift from the game to my body I see him gulp"Damn woman ugh u just don't know what you do to me when you do that "
I smile and I put on an all black skirt with a red and white checkered strapless shirt with a white jean jacket with my babies (red black and white checkered vans) I come my long hair out then I get some gorilla snot and lay my edges then I put on some smelly good "baby get ready already I don't want to be lateee"
"Yes your highness"
