Jamal's POV
Shit got me so mad like oh so now after asking her to marry me all of a sudden I don't care? What the fuck man ughhh."This is bullshit." Not caring that my hand was bleeding luckily the carpet is red in the bedroom otherwise I would of fucked it up. I walk downstairs after going into the bathroom and cleaning my hand and wrapping it up I see her sleep on the couch. She has a whole bed but choose to sleep on the couch well beggars can't be choosers.
I look up at the ceiling breathing I get out the bleach from under the kitchen sink I go upstairs to change into some black basketball shorts a tank top some Nike socks and my white Gucci slides. I clean the blood off the floor with the bleach and the mop then I put a little bit of fabulouso on the floor and mop the entire kitchen.
Putting everything up I get my bags full of shoes and take them and organize them in my closet. I head back downstairs after I finished. Then I sit on the couch near the one my girlfriend was sleeping on. She is going to be hurting. I rush upstairs grabbing a pillow and her vibrating heating pad. I lift her head slowly putting the pillow under her. I roll her on her back I lift my hoodie up and I rest the pad on her stomach turning it on 5 making sure to comfort her stomach.
I go look for my phone afterwards remembering I didn't take it with me when I left to go to the mall. I check the couch cushions nope the kitchen nope the laundry room nope then I check the 2 other bedrooms upstairs nope then I head into the bedroom I see it laying on the bed under the messy cover. I fix the bed up then turn the room light off closing the door behind me.
Why did she think I was ignoring her I check my phone then I see why she thought I was ignoring her. Taniya got serious anger problems. Contemplating on what to do I say fuck it and I just sit back down on the couch. After about 40 minutes of being on my phone reading a book I look up and I see her sit up rubbing her eyes she looks down and sees the pad on her stomach. Then she looks down at the pillow.
"You didn't have to bring me a pillow or this heating pad Jamal I was okay." I shake my head "ok"
She gets up and strolls over to where I'm sitting then she gets on the couch laying her head on my chest. "Let me turn a little more ." I tell her then she sits up I turn til my back is in the corner of the couch and she can lay on me . I push her back on my slowly she lays back and breathes softly.
"Baby I'm sorry I'm just so angry I just feel like you been distant like you regret marrying me or something I just disgusted and shit I know it sounds so stupid but I'm just saying."
I look at her "apparently you are wrong I've just been busy planning our wedding so shit . You might not realize it but weddings are difficult to plan out. Trust me you are perfect I will never regret you I love you more then you will ever know I just be quiet when I'm thinking a lot and I don't really understand what makes you think of the shit that you think of."
She huffs " I know baby but I just be wanting your attention and when I asked you where were you earlier you walked right past me without any type of emotion toward my questions."
I think then I speak "Cause you know I don't argue with you when you mad cause you always think you right you hate being interrupted plus you don't ever want to hear what I have to say." I say knowing that it is the truth
"I mean you are rude."
"Yea I might be but at least I'm honest to people." I say knowing she probably was going to interpret that the wrong way like always."The fuck is that supposed to mean huh? So you calling me a liar now?man nigga fuck you it's whatever. I'm done. "
I pull my headphones out my pocket plug them in then I turn my music all the way up I get up up walking upstairs I refuse to deal with her bullshit attitude today she can save that shit for the birds .Im taking my black ass to sleep it's fucking 11 in the morning and she wants to argue over some dumbass shit that she made up in her head.
I walk into bedroom making sure to close the door back as I go in . I get in bed and I lay down staring at the ceiling wondering why women had to find every little thing to get mad then argue about it then try to get even more mad when you dont argue with them about it, like I'm not trying to argue til fucking death.
I start falling asleep as I feel my eyes get heavy my vision was going in and out damn i couldn't manage to keep my eyes open. Damn it's hard trying to fight sleep. I give in and let sleep take control. But as I finally go to sleep I feel a presence so I open my eyes I see her looking at me. She crawls in bed and wraps around my waist with her little arms .
"I'm sorry I just I really don't know what is wrong with me I'm emotional cause my cramps it's making me act out irrationally and irresponsibly baby I'm sorry for pushing you and making you stab yourself . Please forgive me."
I sigh" I forgive you now lay down and let me go back to sleep I been out since 4 this morning I'm tired."
"Okay daddy I love you "
I manage to say " I love you too teddy bear........
