I've decided
Since I am a recovering addict at only 16
I have not had a chance to really be someone before the drugs and alcohol
I am giving myslef until prom (in may, approximately 8 months) to lose 100lbs and to become a person
With the drugs stripped away from me, I am a blank canvas
It's like I get to build myself from scratch
The only problem with this person I am building is that it wants to smoke cigarettes more than anything
But
I am working on it
This new me already has a boyfriend
This new me loves books, just like child me
This new me will make time to sit and watch movies and tv shows
This new me will redo my room and collect plants
New me woukd also like to be a poet and publish a book
I am turning this wjole new me thing into a project
An 8 month project
Prom will be the approximate deadline for me to be a whole person again
I would like to write a poetry book during this time
Poems about how it feels to have a fresh start
Losing weight is also a part of becoming the new me
This is a jumbled mess. Maybe at some point I'll organize this. But. I understand what I want.
8 months. 100lbs to lose. A new person to build. Need to look into new looks. Wardrobe will be 100% redone when I start to maintain the weight loss, so now is time to play with new styles.
