re·ly
rəˈlī/Submit
verb
depend on with full trust or confidence.
"I know I can rely on your discretion"
synonyms: depend on, count on, bank on, place reliance on, reckon on; More
be dependent on.
"the charity has to rely entirely on public donations"
synonyms: be dependent on, depend on, be unable to manage without
"we rely on government funding."
I rely on you too much.. I think.
I cry when I think about you not being there.
I'm happy if you get casted for a movie, or you meet a good new friend.
But, I hate when you mess up good things that might have come your way.
You make me happy, no doubt about it. But I'm starting to doubt my happiness. Maybe I don't need you as much as I think I do.
That tweet is so right though, I shouldn't rely on someone to make my happiness, I need to find happiness myself. But, I already rely on you too much to let go, I can't let you go. No matter what I try to do you're always going to be the person I look up to, the person that inspires me, the person that brings me light on the dark days. I rely on you to be there even if you don't know you're there.
The more and more time goes by, I just sit, and think. Think about what things would be like if I didn't rely on you like this. But I do, and there's nothing that can stop me anymore.
This all came from one tweet.
