My fingers were swiftly strucking the polished guitar that I seated on my lap.
Soft notes escaped from its depth and made its way directly to my heart.
It was so calming , so soothing. I closed my eyes letting it sink in and wrap me in warmth.
The moon was shining upon me in a constellation of beautiful diamonds.
As I stared at the moon a smile made it's way to my lips.
The moon was my only companion in this cold night , my only source of light in the cruel darkness that enveloped the city in front me.
Staying up on my roof all night was one of the things I enjoyed in life.
Here I feel alive , I feel like I belong somewhere , I feel happy here.
My heart beats with every note and sings with every lyrics.
"Hyung, hyung? Are you up here? I've been looking for you ! Oh there you are"
Dowoon smiled at me as his eyes formed a perfect crescent. He was safely wrapped in a padded jacket that shielded him from the cold.
"It's cold outside ! Why are you still up here? What if you catch a cold?"
His way of scolding me and caring for me was kinda cute , I ruffled his hair and he glared at me in annoyance
"Do you know how much time it took me to style my hair?? Now it's all ruined because of you!"
" I thought you were cute" I said as I pinched his cheek.
He slapped my hand away and I chuckled
"I'm always up here because this is where I belong. under those millions and millions of shining stars I feel alive you know..."
"yeah , you wouldn't be saying that once you freeze because of the cold and your heart stops beating "
"if i die here. I'd be the happiest dead person "
"hyung ! anyways, here "
he handed me a fuming hot chocolate , my mouth watered I looked at it.
"who loves hot chocolate?
sungjin lovvvvvesss hot chocolate!"
I said in a cute way as I took a sip.
dowoon looked at me in disgust
"how can I unsee this?"
I glared at him and he lowered his gaze chuckling
"I thought you loved your guitar more though..."
"ya ! I love both of them equally, they both make me feel warm and loved !"
"I can do that too!"
and he took me off guard as he wrapped his arms tightly around me.
"hyung , it happend again..."
my heart stopped for a moment. and i looked at him with wide eyes , he wasn't lying it really did happen again.
I hugged him back patting his back as tears started streaming down his cheeks . I tried calming him down but failed , his hiccups doubled and his tears fell on my shoulder, soaking my shirt in the process
"dowoon-ah it's okay ! it's okay ! it's going to be okay , don't worry."
"h...ow is it g...oing to be O-kay? how can it ever be okay! I can't live through this anymore hyung. she's been lifeless for weeks. we can't even afford dinner anymore because of the bills. I can't go to school because I'm too worried.
she's always on my mind hyung.
I want her to be okay. i want her to be okay . i want her to be okay . I want her to be okay "
a few tears escaped from my eyes , the sorrow and desperation I heared in his voice made my heart feel as heavy as a rock.
I couldn't help him , the only thing I can do is just pathetically pat his shoulder in a failed attempt to calm him and it made me angry.
