We Found Love (A One Direction Fan Fic)

Chapter 19: Inner Strength And Being Strong (Regan)

Chapter 19: Inner Strength And Being Strong (Regan)

I sat on my bed, with my grandmas laptop in front of me. I was on an ooVoo sesh with my cousin Layla, and my best friend since birth Kaylee. I just stayed in my pajamas the entire day, because I was to depressed to change into clothes, well since I didn't have any.

"So Regan, how are you feeling?" Kaylee asked

"Not to good. It's been tough. Some friends are coming from America to help with the funeral" I responded to Kaylee

"Who are you staying with?" Layla asked

"Grandma and grandpa" I said

"Who are your friends from America?" Kaylee asked

"My friend Isabel, and One Direction" I said

"Oh yea, hows Louis doing?" Layla asked

"He's fine, him and I got into an argument last night. But they are still coming. But I also heard, him and my friend Isabel are in a lot of arguments" I said, moving my part of my hair out of my face.

"Ahh, well I hope that it won't be awkward when they get here" Layla said

"Same, hey Layla when you are you guys coming from Worcestershire?" I asked

"Um my mum said that we might be there tomorrow" Layla said

"Kaylee, do you want to come over?" I asked

"Yea, of course, you with your grandparents?" She asked

"Yea, I can't go back to the house. To many memories." I said fighting back the tears

"I'll be there in a few" She said

"I love you guys, and Layla i'll see you in the morning sometime" I said

"Ok, love you too girl, Kaylee, I'll see you later" Layla said to Kaylee

"You too" She smiled

"Bye guys" I said logging off

I closed my laptop, and placed on the chair on the side of the bed. I turned my phone back on, and just decided to listen to some music. The first song that came on was "Next To You" By Chris Brown and Justin Bieber. 

I had a few tears shed down my face. Because for my 17th birthday my dad put this whole video together for me. And this was the song he used in it. So it made me think of him. I closed my eyes, and fell asleep listening to which is mine and my dads song.

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"Regan" I heard whispering, and someone shaking me

I opened my eyes, and I saw Kaylee standing there

"Kaylee" I shot up and pulled her into a huge hug

I started to cry into her shoulder, as she ran her hand through my hair.

"It's gonna be ok girl, we will get through this together" She said quietly.

"I just feel like it's my fault" I said through my tears.

"No Re, it's not your fault. It's no ones fault. His time came. And he's not suffering anymore. He is watching over you in heaven right now" She said

I pulled out of the hug with tears piling out of my eyes. She just smiled

"Trust me" She said.

I wiped my eyes, and just smiled

"Thank you love" I said lightly

We hugged again, and I sniffled and cried a tiny bit more. The least Kaylee can do is let me cry. She would let me cry for hours and hours.

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Later that day, we were in the kitchen with my grandparents. She was making us her chocolate chip cookies. Yes. I started calming down with everything that has happened. Kaylee was right earlier. It was his time to go. So I'm not just gonna lay around and feel sorry for myself. Because I didn't do anything. But I did lose my own best friend

"Here you go girls" Grandma said setting a plate of cookies in the middle of us.

"Yes, Regan's grandma's famous chocolate chip cookies" Kaylee said taking a cookie and dunking it in her glass of milk in front of her

What are we like 5 years old? Who gives a shit. No one can back down from my grandma's cookies. I dunked my cookie in the milk, and stuck it in my mouth. It melted on my tastebuds, and it tasted awesome. Like always.

Kaylee and I looked at each other. And we just started laughing. This is the first time I have ever laughed in the past 48 hours. But now, I know that he's happy watching over me. And he wants me to be happy, and not sit around and be sad all the time. HE didn't raise me like that.

I love you daddy

My Inner Strength is coming back.