What's your name?

Chapter 5

I awake the next morning to both of my boys beside me. Cameron and Tk are holding each other with me in the middle... It is a bit different, but I will get used to it soon. I am warm and comfortable so I drift back to sleep.

I awaken for the second time to the smell of bacon and french toast. I look to my left and see Cameron. That means that Tk must be cooking... Cameron mumbles some nonsense in his sleep. Hm. How innocent...

I slowly stand up and walk into the kitchen. Tk didn't notice. I walk up behind him and put both of my hands on his shoulders so I could see what he had cooked. He was startled and jumps. I laugh at his blushing red face.

"What? didn't you hear me?" I tease.

"No! Not at all! You scared me Kio!" I frown... He is still calling me Kio... When will I tell them my real name? Tk notices my puzzlement. "Kio really isn't your name is it?" I am startled by his always knowing what I am thinking. I shake my head.

"No. My name is-" Tk held up his hand.

"I don't want to know. I like you as Kio. Besides, the old you should have run away so you will have to change your name anyways... just call yourself Kio."

"But then how will we go out and have fun like we used to? Besides, I still have steam that I need to burn off thanks to that jerk who..." I can't even say the words. Suddenly I feel really sad. I feel tears welling up in my eyes. I want to go run and hide. I feel so alone.

I feel a warm body press up against mine and wrap me into a loving embrace. I don't even know which of them it is but I give in and cry. I don't want to let go. I don't want to forget my family but their memories are so painful. No matter how bad my life was because of them, I still don't like that they are gone. I never wanted any of them dead...

Eventually I feel myself stop crying. I wipe my eyes with my wrist. I look down at my wrist and see the slit scars from when I was 5 and 6 years old. My family killed my feelings so that I was numb to everything. I would cut myself because I was a horrible person. At least that is what they told me... It was all because of Andy. He would go crying to our parents when I would ask for a toy or a marker. I didn't like him at all.

"Whatever you are thinking, stop it." I jumped at the sound of Cameron's voice. "You a trembling and barely standing. Kio you are not like this! You are strong and righteous. I isn't like you to surrender."

I feel a hand on my head. "Yeah. And you have us now. We won't let anything happen to you." Tk smiled and winked at me. "Besides, you are only Kio now!" My heart skipped a beat just then.

"But there is a problem with being Kio everywhere." Both of my boys look at me confused. "The person who..." I swallow hard. "Killed my family was looking for Kio. I will only be Kio outside of school."

Cameron nodded and released me. "That makes sense I guess." He pauses and thinks for a minute. "Then who are you in school?"

"I will assume my birth name. Hello my name is Kainda. Pleased to meet you." I frown. "May I assume one of your last names? I don't want the police to know where I am for questioning."

They both nodded and said "You can use my last name. No mine! No mine is better. I disagree! Who will you choose?" I smile and giggle. How will I do this so as not to offend them... I got it!

"Well lets see... Tk, your last name is Joda. Cameron, your last name is Cromwell. So my last name will be Jowell. That way, I have part of both of you!" They both nodded.

"Nice to meet you Kainda Jowell!" They both cheered. Our next challenge was registering for school...