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十一

'wait, why?' seungmin noticed how defensive hyunjin got in a matter of seconds. 'she just owes my friend money for some things.' 'what kind of things?' seungmin bit his lip remembering the text from jinsoul. 'spit it out, love' he lifted his face to meet his eyes. 'w-well i'm guessing it's about illegal things' 'like?' seungmin wanted to slap hyunjin for making him say exactly what it was as if he didn't know. 'd-drugs' his mouth went dry as hyunjin only sat there, mouth agape, looking shocked. 'no fucking way.' he shook his head vigorously 'no way she does drugs, i'm sorry seungmin, but i can't believe you...'

now it was seungmin's turn to be shocked with his mouth agape. 'b-but h-' 'listen, i trust haneul, she said she doesn't do drugs, smoke, or drink, and i believe her.'

'what's your relation to her?'

'jesus christ, min.'

'just tell me, it's not a big deal!'

'she's a childhood friend! there, i said it! happy yet? or does nothing make you fucking happy anymore! nothing is good enough for you huh?!' hyunjin stood, frustrated, while seungmin felt tears prick at his eyes at the sound of arguing. 'you're just another sad college student who thinks no one knows despite how dark his art is! but you know what!? fuck you and your shitty art! i never should have never even asked you to get coffee, hell i wish i didn't even follow you!' tears fell down seungmin's cheeks.

seungmin let out soft sobs as he just took all the insults. it was just like his last relationship all over again. 'news fucking flash seungmin, the world doesn't revolve around your sad, pathetic, worthless, self!' seungmin broke with every insult thrown at him. 'jinnie-'

'no. i'm not your fucking jinnie, not anymore.' seungmin stood next to the older boy. 'hyunjin, a-all it was w-was a q-question.' more tears fell, hyunjin looked down at him with emotionless, glazed over eyes. 'you know what, go back to your ex, he loved you, so why dont you fucking go back.' he didn't let his eyes meet the crying boy's. 'h-hyunjin, he didn't love me.' seungmin paused trying to calm himself down, but with every word, a memory of his ex came back. 'h-he h-hurt me...' he sobbed, covering his face. 'h-he made me d-do things i d-didn't want to d-do.' seungmin let out tears that built up for some time now. 'h-he made me unable to t-trust a-anyone. t-thanks to him i h-hate the dark. w-when we l-lived together, he said i w-was bad and h-had to sleep in the c-closet. i a-already didn't like the dark.' seungmin paused, wiping his tears with his sweater paws.

'h-he gave me b-bruises and s-scars that i still. i-i never t-told anyone he h-hurt me b-because he- he threatened to k-kill me and f-frame it on suicidal t-thoughts.' seungmin didn't look up, instead, he played with the hem of his sweatshirt. 'and i'm so s-scared that he'll f-find me and hurt me worse.' he let tears fall before feeling arms embrace him and hearing small sobs in his right ear. 'i'm so sorry.' he said softly. 'i-i feel like a dick for making you cry and remember those things.'

'it's ok, hyunjin.' seungmin smiled. 'no it's not! i made you cry all for an argument! i made you remember horrible and terrifying things! i called you pathetic!' he cried into seungmin's shoulder. 'it's really fine! i-i'm used to it! honest! please stop crying ji- hyunjin.' hyunjin pulled his face away from seungmin's chest before leaning in. seungmin's eyes widened once their lips touched. seungmin honestly never kissed anyone. he got kissed forcefully, he didn't kiss back though of course.

hyunjin's hands tilting seungmin's head up to deepen the kiss. seungmin, still shocked, kissed back. they pulled apart breathlessly. a string of saliva connected their lips. 'i-i never kissed anyone before...' seungmin mumbled shyly, scratching his neck. 'really?' hyunjin was shocked at the boy who was laughing a little. 'yeah.' his cheeks felt tired from smiling. 'that explains why you're smiling like your high.' hyunjin laughed before seungmim turned pink and stopped smiling. hyunjin glanced at his phone, his smile soon faded. 'seungmin, i-i have to go' seungmin frowned. 'w-wait, you said you'd stay.' 'i know but i-i promise i'll be back, just give me 20 minutes, call me or text me if you need me. stay safe, ill be back.' he hugged seungmin before connecting their lips momentarily. 'i love you.' seungmin felt terrified as those words left his lips like it was the last time they would see each other.

'love you too.'

a/n:
hi, i didn't sleep and all ive been doing is writing :)

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