Nightmares are also reality (Stiles/Derek:Sterek)

Finding out

I drove and kept driving not caring if I was speeding, I finally got out of beacon hills, I just kept driving, I never wanted to return here, I remembered I kept a gun in my car incase of emergencies, I drove of the road and onto the side, I pulled out the gun, and pointed it to my head, I sobbed because no one would even care that I was gone, scott didn't even notice my drug addiction! I had no one, I was alone, I sat in my car crying with the gun to my head, all I was ever used for was information and abuse! Derek the so called alpha always scared the shit outta me and always hurt me, Erica always beat the shit out of me, I don't even know Isaac and Jackson is still the douche he is. and Scott left me, like i didn't even exist anymore

I put my finger on the trigger, and kept crying

Derek's POV: I stood their on my front porch, then all the sudden it felt like my face was being slashed and slammed against something hard, I felt as a cold substance made it's way down my face but when I touched it nothing was their, I was confused, was I feeling someone else's pain? My mate's pain? No that can't be, I don't even know who my mate is, but apparently my wolf did, it's like he took over, I shifted and ran to who knows where, I was going where my wolf was leading me towards

Then I smelled blood and tears, I approached my destination and saw stiles pointing a gun to his head crying with his finger on the trigger, "STILES WHAT THE FUCK!" I yelled, he looked up and I could of sworn I saw a glimpse of hope in his eyes, "GO AWAY DEREK!" he screamed, I shifted back and used a softer tone, talking to a person who's going to commit suicide was needed to be done with caution, "stiles why?" he looked at me as if I was crazy " WHY DO YOU CARE DEREK! NO ONE CARES! JUST GET OUT OF HERE! YOUVE ALWAYS BEEN AN ASSHOLE TO ME AND NOW YOUR STOPPING ME FROM ENDING MY MISERY!?" I realized he had slashes on his face, the blood still pouring down from the wound, then it hit me like a ton of bricks, he was my mate, it never thought of meeting a lover after my family died, " stiles just stop! You don't need to die!"

I needed to stay strong, I couldn't show him that I really cared but showed some care for him to atleast rethink his choice

Stiles POV: I stood their as Derek tried to convince me not to pull the trigger I just sat there, "I'm sorry Derek" I whispered as I pulled the trigger, a big boom went into my ears before everything went black