Save Me From Myself

Chapter 16

A/N:Okay so some shitty stuff has happened over the past couple of days so I struggled to finish this but luckily I wrote most of it on Wednesday so I only had a few paragraphs to write but anyway, I can't promise there'll be another update next Sunday but I'm gonna try. Uhh yeah, not a lot really happens in this chapter it's just kind of a transition from drama to something else but I'm not sure what yet so yeah it's a little shitty but oh well, anyway this probably makes no sense since I'm sleep deprived and asked my dog to stop laughing before instead of to stop barking but oh well, whoop

Also I wrote another one shot about Ikuya the other day but got to like 3000 words and decided I hated all of it so that's a bit of a rip but oh well

How long had it been since he got here? An hour? Five hours? Natsuya had no idea. He had long since tried to drown out the bustling noise of the hospital, however, a sudden increase in noise had him snapping back into reality, his head swimming with the amount of noise. He could hear voices, raised voices. And they were coming from the room that Ikuya was in, doing nothing to help the growing dread in Natsuya's heart.

All of a sudden, there was silence from the previously loud room. Natsuya held his breath as a nurse came out of the room, the look in her eyes telling him all he needed to know. The tears came down immediately and he didn't even hear what the nurse said. He didn't need to. He already knew. Ikuya was gone.

And just like that Natsuya's world came crashing down around him.

He couldn't breathe, couldn't stop shaking from head to toe, couldn't bear the harsh reality of the situation. His brother was dead. He could've helped, but he was too late, and now Ikuya was...

He couldn't even bear the thought of it.

Everything seemed to move in slow motion as hand's started grabbing at him, trying to gain his attention. He threw his arms out to stop whoever it was from touching him. He didn't want anyone to touch him however, it wouldn't stop. He let out a loud sob, begging whoever it was to stop touching him. He could feel his vision going blurry, the people in front of him no longer in focus and he almost sighed in relief. At least he could be alone for a while.....

Natsuya snapped awake, sitting up as fast as possible, coming close to hitting his father in the head as he shot up. There were hands resting on his arms and they gently guided him to sit back down.

"It's okay, it was just a dream, I promise," His mother's comforting voice came from beside him, accompanied by her stroking his hair gently. It was clear that she had been crying by the rough tone of her voice as she spoke and the small sniffles that escaped every now and then. He let out a loud sob as the nightmare came rushing back to him. Ikuya....Where was Ikuya? Was he okay? Was he...alive?

"Iku....ya..." Natsuya managed to choke out between sobs and his mother stroked a hand up and down his spine "Is he alive...?"

"Shhhh, it's okay...Yes, he's alive, I promise you," This time it was his father speaking, his voice also sounding rough, however, Natsuya could tell that he was trying to be strong about the situation.

"I'm ...s...sorry... I should have noticed him leave practice...I should have s...stopped him...m...maybe then this wouldn't have h...happened...." Natsuya was choking on his own sobs as he tried to speak and his mother gently silenced him, instructing him to breathe as deeply as he could