dream || j.jk✔

panic

it was night and i was in an alley. i was walking by myself. it was quiet and quite dark and i was alone. then i saw him again but this time he looked sinister. his hair was also brown instead of the red/pink color he had before. he started walking towards me and i was starting to back away but no matter what, he was getting closer to me. i was scared he was going to hurt me or worse. he grabbed my arm and pulled me toward him, lowering his mouth to my ear.

"youre mine and only mine. youll love me without even knowing it."

i wake up screaming 'stop it'. i open my eyes and there was light, meaning it was morning. tears started flowing out my eyes while i sit and wait for them to stop. after a few seconds, i hear footsteps running and my door burst open. it was young-jae.

"are you okay?! whats the matter?! what happened?!" he sees me in tears and he comes to cuddle me.

"i-i.." i try to speak but nothing was coming out. i cursed at myself because of it.

"shhh, its okay." i hug him back shoving my face into his chest still crying.

"im-im okay. please.."

"no you arent. just let it out." i continue to cry into his chest.

i couldnt believe i was crying because of a dumbass dream. why did it have such an affect on me?

after ten minutes, i finally calmed down but had no energy to want to do anything. i was hoping jae would let me stay home but he said no because he didnt want anything to happen to me since he got hired at his new job. i was sad that i couldnt stay but i still got ready regardless so he could drop me off.

after he dropped me off, i walked into school without a care in the world. my hair was slightly messy. i was bare-faced as usual and i didnt want to be here. like a normal teen.

jennie's face made it worse. she came into the class looking straight at me. i turn my head and i can feel her smirk. i didnt want to put up her shit today. not right now.

"whats wrong young-mi? did your parents get kidnapped and killed or something?" she asked giggling while going to her seat. my eyes widen in horror. did she know about my parents? how?

fucking mila. that trading ass bitch.

"what the fuck did you just say?!" i ask walking up to her desk and slamming my hands on the table. she jumps out of surprise. everyone gasps as i never acted this way before.

i never had to but she was pushing my buttons and i already didnt want to be here.

"what? isnt that what happened? what are you going to do, tell your dead mother?" she asked smirking. thats when i lost it. tears streaming down my face, as i slap her so hard the room went quiet.

"you better watch your fucking mouth jennie. you have no fucking right. youre such a bitch."

i grab my backpack and run out of the room. as i tried to leave, i bump into mila. i look at her with disgust and bump her out of the way. i heard her call my name but i want nothing to do with her after what she did to me.

i ran to the roof and sat on the bench. i was crying so hard i couldnt breathe. i was already upset as it was but she took it too far. i hate her so much and now i hate mila too. i never thought my best friend would betray me like that.

was she even my best friend in the first place? did she just use me so jennie would have an affect on me?

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i stayed on the roof until it was lunch and i planned to stay up here until school was out. i was still crying and still trapped in my thoughts.

i didnt know what to do or how to feel. i just wanted to jump off the railing. i got up and walked closer to the railing but then heard the doors burst open.