Eyes Of Love | 사랑의 눈동자 | JJK FF

EOL 21

Nayeon Pov

I was putting my stuff in my locker when a group of girls called me from behind. I know what they want. Its been a while since they are doing this. Since that incident. With a heavy sigh, I turn my body around.

"Hey Nayeon, can you please pass this to Jungkook?"

A tall brunette with long black hair is holding a few pieces of letters in her hand. I had received so many letters in my locker every single day. It did not stop even after I had warned them. I thought Yoon was joking before but now, when I got to experience this postman thing, I had to admit Yoon is a very patient person. It's not like it never happened to me, back in high school Jungkook did receive it as well but back then it comes with a kinds of present, guess who is the middleman that time? That's right, it's me.

"I can't. If you girls need to give this to him, then face him by yourself." Its the same answer as what I told others.

"Oh please.. Don't be like this Nayeon. You know he will never accept this from us"

Exactly.

"Then what make you think that he will read if I'm the one who gives it to him?"

"You and him are close. It would reach him if you pass it. Same like what Yoon had done. Yoon said he sometimes read it in his free time. So, please.."

He did? He read them? Wow. As I remembered, he never read it. He said if he ever does that, its like he is giving them hope. Now, it changed?

"Still. I can't help you with this. Sorry" I bowed at them before walking away from there.

How can I help them trying to get Jungkook attention by sending all those useless letters if being with him from high school also never succeed?

I like him. Yes, I do. But he never saw it. He is like my life savior. He helps me get through the hard moment when we are still in high school. He gave me strength when my parent chooses to part their ways. I cried river back then asking them not too. But they never listen to me. They never care about my feeling. All they know, when things are not working out, divorce is the only way. When I need them the most, there were to focus on their own problem. Like a flower that almost dies, life is no longer important to me.

But what I did not expect, he came. People said you can't have a rainbow without a little pain.

So God gives me Jungkook. He was there. Listened to me every single night. Comfort me when I felt alone. He cares. He was so kind and tender. He saves me. He makes the wilt flower bloom again. That is when my feeling for him, grew bigger.

I know he only treats me as a friend. He always said that he is my brother. Whenever I need him, he will be there. But now, I screwed up. I make a mistake. I know he is mad at me because I slap Yoon in front of people. I know how he is thankful towards her and her family. They give him and his brother a home. When I hurt her, its like I hurt him as well. But I will change that. I wanna be the person that brings him out from that house. He doesn't need to feel indebted anymore. He can live his own life. I will make that happen. We can work things out.

But first, I need to win his heart. I don't want him to look at me as a girl anymore. I had changed. I let my hair grow past my shoulder to look more mature. I even dress my self in a feminine style. I do everything to look better in front of him, to compete against all the girl that trying to gain his attention. If all this effort can make him see me, I will do whatever it takes. You see, just thinking about him also can make my heart flickers.

Cafeteria right now is quite vacant as time just show five-minute pass 12 in the afternoon. I had my drink in my hand. I choose a seat at one of the corners in the cafeteria. All my focused is on my book when someone taking a sit in front of me.