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Cold Air

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When i got to school i felt sick.

Like everyone was watching me,

actually - they where .

They weren't scowling or anything , just watching .

I kept my head down and got to the field , on the bench i always sat.

There was only a few people on the field but i still felt i was being watched.

You to Josh: Are you coming in ?

Josh: I wasn't , though then you'll be on your own . I'll be a little bit later though because i'm not ready yet.

You: Ok

I just continued to stare at my phone , scrolling through different social media's. 

I put in my earphones , loaded up a song.

Ok now play the song

Should i message Devan ? 

I should.

Though i don't know what to put, and i couldn't let Josh find out.

He always reads through my phone ; it's not possessive , he's looking out for me.

***

A thick flow of wind ran through the trees and rushed past me , making me snuggle more into my coat.

I like the cold, it helps me relax.

Taking in a deep breath of the icy air, it helps me calm myself down.

Now i felt alone, and i was enjoying it.

Someone had shouted from behind me, i guessed it was just one of the boys playing football so i ignored it and continued my music.

"Soph, are you ignoring me ?" Then i felt his warm presence wrapping around my neck , it felt like nothing had changed - just a normal school day.

Except then i turned to see his face , a bloody scab running down his right eye followed by a swollen mess on his cheek bone.

It came back, all of it. 

All at once.

The first hit.

Then Josh coming over.

And hitting Devan .

And hitting him,

and kicking him.

It didn't stop.

My head had gone light as the film continued to rewind in my head.

Josh had seen red and didn't know what he was doing .

People pulling him back followed by him just kicking back wanting to damage him more.

Then my eyes where drew back into Josh's face , back to the present.

"Why did you do that too him ?"

His smile was sent away and a dim expression was shown on his face , an anger that wasn't aggressive - just sad.

"I - i didn't mean to i-it was jus-" I cut him off with my own sour words .

"Do you realise what you've done to yourself ? Let alone Devan ? You could've killed him ? And you can't fix this one Josh. Everyone knows !"

My nose tingled and then i felt the warm liquid gather in my eyes , so much i didn't need to blink before it fell.

I was scared for him. 

He wrapped his arms around my neck and i let my body fall to his .

I cried into him, more and more.

The cold ring of tears on his coat rubbed on my face - i felt embarrassed and i still couldn't stop myself. 

Josh pulled my head out his arms and looked into my eyes ,

"I promise you, it'll be okay.".

He believed his words , so i forced myself to.

Everything else he has got through , he'll get through this too.

"Common," He spoke pulling my hand.

"Where are we going ?"

"Coffee house." He smiled warmly at me .

"We've got school.."

"School is the last thing you need right now, besides - i'll pay for you."

***

I stared at the chalkboard , filled with different Coffee's and specialities .

Almost like i wasn't going to order what i usually have.

"What do you want ? " His hand was still on mine .

"Usual." I smiled back

"Why do i even ask ?"

He turned back to the barista .

"Large Mocha with an extra shot and a Medium breakfast Tea"

"Aw you got me a large ,"

He smirked.

"Don't hype yourself up, i get my Tea free if i get you large."

"And there's me thinking you where being considerate ."

"Hey , i got you a birthday present , didn't i ?" He nudged me backwards playfully.

"You got me a top that your sister picked out because you didn't know what i'd like or what size i would be."

"Still a present and it cost me fifteen quid , don't be a brat."

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