Changes

Chapter 5

Shawn arrives at your place and stands there looking at you.

"What now Mr. Mendes?" You say slightly laughing.

"It's just... You look amazing everytime I see you! Is it on purpose or it's just natural beauty?"

"Aw thank you babe, but it's obviously natural beauty"

"Ohhh come here!" Shawn runs to you and hugs you tight and lifts you in the air. You look at each other and he says "You have those perfect and shining eyes that makes me nervous all time baby..." You smile and he kisses you.

It feels so right to be there with him but from nothing you start to feel a little annoyed and  sick. You push Shawn back and as soon as he puts you on the ground, you run to the toilet and throw up. Shawn runs behind you to see if you are ok.

"Yeah I'm better now Shawn I just, I don't know, I was feeling good but from nowhere I had to throw up."

"But why is this happening?" asks Shawn concerned.

"I don't know maybe the food I ate or something." You look at him and seconds later you start laughing.

"Wha-why are you laughing?" asks him a little confused.

"It's just... You face hahaha. You don't have to be so dramatic hahaha" you continue laughing and when you see he is serious you stop. "Ok sorry but it was funny, you should have seen your face."

"I was just concerned about you. I love you Y/n!" Shawn says while helping you to get up.

"I know I'm sorry for laughing at your cutie face. I love you too." and you hug him.

You two get dinner and went to sleep and you decide to make a pregnancy test while Shawn was asleep cause you didn't want him to know that you were thinking you could be pregnant. You go to the bathroom and some minutes later you see the result.

"Yes"

You start to cry. It's not that you are not ready to have a kid with Shawn but you knew he would leave you if he discovered that. You go to the kitchen and put the test in the trash.

You go back to bed and think about the topic. You decide you were going to get an abortion without Shawn knowing. That was the better thing to do.

*Next day*

"

Good morning love" Says shawn while involving you on a big and tight hug.

"Hey baby." You say yawning. Then you feel sick again and get up and go to the toilet to throw up again.

"Y/n are u ok?" shawn says while going to check on you.

"Yeah I'm fine. It is probably because of the food poisoning I got last night. No big deal." You say with a little smile.

"If you say so. I just don't want to see you suffer." shawn replies and hugs you.

"Look I have to go now." You say nervously.

"What? Where are you going? I thought today you didn't have nothing to do."

"Yeah but I have to go to the studio to do something. It won't take too long. You can stay here and when I get back you and me can go for a walk together or something." You say and kiss him

"Ok,  you are lucky you're beautiful." he winks and goes to the kitchen to prepare breakfast.

  You dress yourself and leave. When you arrive at the hospital they take you to a special room and the doctor says it will hurt just a little and that you were going to stay a week or something like that with some blood and cramps. You accept it and start the procedure. When it ends you feel relief but at the same time you feel uncomfortable not saying Shawn. You take a deep breath and go back to home.