This poem has a trigger warning due to some risky things being mentioned please do not read if this may result in you self harming or anything like that.
I try to look forward but I'm stuck in the past
I'm a movie stuck in reverse
The only thing I ever see anymore are the things I did wrong
They're the memories that I want to cut but the editors refuse to
I'm going down the road only looking in the rearview mirror
I can't look away no matter what
The only time I don't look back it when you talk
The only one who truly puts my eyes ahead is you
But you left me
I've tried to fill the hole you left
But they always fail
I still need you
I need you to put my eyes on my future
I want you see you in my future but you didn't need that
You left me without a hope
I'm still looking for a reason to live but I can't spot one
The opening to my future is getting smaller as I glance ahead but I can't turn the wheel to get it to open
I'm on a one way track to death with no way to stop
My brakes are failing and all I can say is that I still need you
My E brake is broke and I can't stop
You are my brake now
But you left me to stop on my own
How could you do this when I need you
The ticket I bought is nonrefundable and I've already boarded
The pilot is crazy and I can't escape
I need you to rescue me but I bet you wouldnt
You abandoned me on the road to my demise
How could you do this
I hope you know it's not suicide when it's not my choice
I never wanted this but the brake is dead to me
The pilots dead with the thoughts of killing me too
I can't see the future anymore
It's just black with no light
I thought being dead would have something bright
Even if I was on the track to hell I'd atleast expect some light from the fire
It's so cold so maybe they were wrong
Maybe hell freezes and heaven burns
Maybe freezing isn't so bad to live in for eternity
Or maybe I'm not dead
Maybe I'm blind with only the whispers of the past resounding through the room
The beeping from the monitors say I'm still alive but why
Why would you let me live without you
When I needed you most you left and I still need you
I need you more than ever
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Poems From My Heart and Soul
PoetryThese are poems that I've written and are writing. I'm not writing these because of the fact that people want me to, I'm writing to help me and others.
