I don't like my mind right now
Stacking up problems that are so unnecessary
Wish that I could slow things down
I wanna let go but there's comfort in the panic
And I drive myself crazy
Thinking everything's about me
Yeah, I drive myself crazy
'Cause I can't escape the gravity
I'm holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on
So much more than I can carry
I keep dragging around what's bringing me down
If I just let go, I'd be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
You say that I'm paranoid
But I'm pretty sure the world is out to get me
It's not like I make the choice
To let my mind stay so fucking messy
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same
I'm holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on
So much more than I can carry
I keep dragging around what's bringing me down
If I just let go, I'd be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same
And I drive myself crazy
Thinking everything's about me
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on
So much more than I can carry
I keep dragging around what's bringing me down
If I just let go, I'd be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Why is everything so heavy?
Why is everything so heavy?
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So, about this song. I know it's pretty depressing, but I still love it. The fact that the lead singer is dead by suicide make it much more depressing. I wonder how the other member feel about this. The songs shows how much he is suffering.
Usually when I'm in a super bad mood, I would listen to the song repeatedly.
"It's not like I make the choice, To let my mind stay so fucking messy"
This part hit me so hard. I always wonder what stems my depression? My surroundings? Or is it me to blame? Could overthinking is the factor? I'm not simply craving an attention right?
Those dark thoughts would engulf me for hours or even days. I met a counselor when I was still in high school, she helps me to kinda overcome it so it won't lead to something worst. She told me sometimes its okay to cry, its okay to tell people what you feel. It was fine to have some alone time, but sometimes you need your friend to just help you distract yourself.
We sometimes would think that we are alone in the world, but what I learn is sometimes you just not notice that you are actually not. Letting it out may not solve the problem, but it would definitely make you feel better no matter how hard it is to tell someone. Some people would feel comfortable to tell their problems to their close friends or family. Some would think its easier to tell a stranger. Its up to you.
But let it out, by writing, telling people. Never let it bottle up inside you.
Welp I'm kinda out of the topic. But yeah, love the song. And to those who wanna maybe talk about your problems, or talk about anything, I'm here to lend my ear. So yeahhh....
