dragonflies

chapter 1

it's a fact
when a human
is born
it cries
because it
experiences a
massive
paradigm shift
and if babies
don't cry
its not okay
but 9 times out
of ten they
cry
but when
i was born i
didn't
so they had
to make me
and when
i was 2 and
a half years
old i
almost
died
but didnt
i almost didn't live
but they made me
so can
you feel my
regret i tricked
death and now
i have
a cursed life
a half life
maybe that is
why i am different
but i
love it
because humans are
disgusting i don't
want to be
like them i
hate what
they can do
to hurt
their own kind
with words
more so when they
don't say them when
they don't speak
i hate that
humans can
hurt each
other so
much even if
they too were once
hurt so
i hate this
game of revenge
you don't get
the right to
take revenge
from someone
who didn't do
anything
and i
hate humans
because they
are unaware
they're ungrateful
pieces of sand
and water 
combined together with
a heavenly white pure
burning angel
soul
they think they're
superior to
the other
species
but they're
hypocrites
they don't
understand the
difference between
speaking and
throwing words around
at others
they pretend to
like those
they don't ×2
know anything
about love
or kindness or
passion or
strength or
any other positive
feeling
they want these
abstract nouns
to become a
part of their
society so that everyone
would feel but
they're blind
and impaired
so these nouns are
literally
abstract
from them
because no one wants
to try themselves
and bring change
so they count
on others but
who do the
others count on?
humans
scare me
they have the keys
to open the
long locked doors
of these abstractions
they have a heart
mind and
soul but pity
only a few
seem to be
aware of this fact
and so they carry
these precious keys
with them forever
eyes closed
depending on others
to open the doors
and to show them
the way towards
light and some
toss away theirs because
they don't realize
they'll need  it soon
sooner than they think
so they
spend time and
waste away
their lives
this way and die
this way but
when they reach
the doors of
the heavens they get
a massive
shock
again
it's a paradigm shift
the keys don't fit
the doors
so they cry again
because chapter 1
is closed they
can't do anything
no regrets now
just grief
intense sorrow
and hate
all the negatives they
felt all
their lives
they return to
haunt them
until time ends
us all but
oh no wait
time will never end
in chapter 2
or will it
no it won't
so good luck to you
h u m a n s
you'll need it
but alas it won't
matter there
so wake up now
and do what can be done
to right your wrongs
and
to escape this
chapter 1