dragonflies

i'm okay

i'm not

okay

i never

was

so

i'm writing this

down

now

i'm feeling

nothing

now

i'm saying

everything

now

spilling it

all

now

hiding

nothing

now

because

there is

nothing

to hide

anymore

pain anger loss

forget them

all

i'm saying it all

now

this is

not

poetry or

even a

story or

anything

at all

now

it's just

a bundle

of

words sewn

together

with pain anger loss

so forget it all

i'm saying it all

now

like it is

don't

judge me try to

forgive

even if

you can't

forget

it's guilt

heavy on

my soul

weighing me down

down down

into the

deepest darkest

corners of

shame

dragging me to

the pits of

remorse

the lowest

of the lows of

regret

and the highest of

the highs

of sadness

sad is

not an

adjective i

use a lot

it does

not describe

me well

now

i'm past

sad and

depressed

now

i'm

tired and

exhausted to

even feel

a feeling

so i'm

writing

this down

now

i'm not

okay

now

i'm feeling

nothing

now

i'm saying

it all

now

pain anger loss

forget

them all

i'm hiding

nothing

now