fallen angel - taehyung

fallen angel

The cold night air was surrounding me whilst i was walking through the streets, step by step without having any destination.
Nowhere to go and no-one to talk to. Just myself and the darkness around me...

The lights in this streets weren't that bright and gave the street an kind of mysterious and scary feeling.
But it was nothing I wasn't used to, nothing I felt before.
This night was like any other night in the past two years has been but I could feel that something was going to change... I could feel it deep in my bones. Everything would turn out to be better than before...

I let go of my thoughts so they could rise up into the night sky.
Everything felt so peaceful to night. It seemed like there was no hate and no harm out there in the world. Nothing could happen...

With my eyes looking up at the sky whilst standing on one of the many left and empty streets I slowly closed my eyes. Listening to the usual sounds of a lonely and slowly falling asleep, cold autumn night. The cold wind was getting stronger and from far away thunder was heard.

Everything seemed to be perfect even if it would only last for a few moments. For a second or a minute every pain I felt and all my worries were gone. And then I opened my eyes again and the hard and ugly reality was shown.
A lonely teenage girl, all by herself, alone in the darkest hour of the night. Haunted by the same thoughts, fears night after night.

Just one more time I wanted to go back into my little bit perfect world. Only one more time for this night.
Only a few more minutes I wanted to escape from the gruesome reality I was living in. So I closed my eyes again pushing everything i was thinking about far away from me.

„Come with me, I'll help and protect you"

What was that? I opened my eyes again and looked around me. There was no one seen and no one had been here in the last few hours except for me. But there was something in the air. Something that made me curious. A flavour that wasn't usual for this part of the city. Something that was making me wonder what would happen if I could be happy again or at least make me smile.

„Follow me. I'll show you your savest place"

There it was again, this voice. But no one was around. No one was with me or close to me...
I slowly got up and started walking. There was still no destination I had but where ever I was going it felt like someone was walking this way with me. I wasn't alone or at least for once I didn't felt alone.

I wasn't really paying attention to where I was going but ended up in a street that was familiar to me. A street I used to live in a couple of years ago when my mom was alive and my dad had never touched any kind of alcohol. But now, back in these days everything changed and the only place I could call home where my memoir of the days I was a happy and careless little girl. But how I said, these were just memories and nothing of them was left for me to hold on to.

„You don't have to be scared. Let us just have a single moment of happiness before I take you home"

I was standing right in front of this wall of huge buildings in which I once lived. Nothing had changed. Even the emergency way was still there. The way I usually took out of here when I wanted to meet my friends when my parents didn't want me to leave or when I've done something I shouldn't do. I took a few more steps before I was standing right in front of it.

It took me a few seconds but I decided to go up there. I could force myself to stay down from there. It felt like someone or something was pushing me to go up there whilst the darkness of the night was still surroundinge from everywhere. Step by step I walked up the small staircase getting closer to the roof of the building.