Help me

Starting tour

So they Hey Violet girls already got my stuff and brought it backstage so now we're about to get on the plane to Canada.Honestly I was nervous it's been a while since I've been on a plane and a plane is where my brother..died.I miss him so much.After mom and dad died he was all I had left.And then he died.I was miserable for months.I had so many scars on my wrist and so many tears were shed.I have no friends since they all turned against me when my parents died and started calling me an attention seeker and all that before high school ended.So honestly I have no one.I think Ashton might've noticed me whimpering and shaking before we got on the plane cause he came over and hugged me and asked me what was wrong."Its just...i have a fear of planes my brother died on one 2 years ago and even seeing a plane scares me a bit.." I said and bit my lip hurrying my face in his chest."Ill sit next to you okay?Ill hold your hand if your scared.Ill let you sleep if you want.We can even cuddle okay?youll be a okay." he said and hugged me for a big longer until Brittany came along."ASHYYYY DO YOU HAVEEE TO LEAVE." She said."Yes yes I do now if you excuse me I have a plane to board here with Allison and the rest of my mates so bye." he said annoyed and gently grabbed me and went the other direction which was to the plane."Im scared ash." I said still whimpering and shaking."Hey hey you'll be okay okay?youll be fine." he said and I nodded but I was still scared.We got on the plane,or should I say private plane.It was just for me and the boys and hey violet which I sorta actually liked cause if it was more people I actually probably would've freaked cause I don't like being with someone I don't trust.Explains why I'm such a shy person.Since I've actually known these boys since the beginning I wasn't worked about not trusting them.The hey violet girls talked to me a lot and I was warming up to them a bit.But the bassist of their band didn't talk to me at all so I don't think I'll trust him.The girls are all so nice and everything.Like honestly I think I might be friends with them at some point.Ans that's saying something cause normally im scared of making friends.whdn we boarded I check my arm and realized I didn't cover my arm with concealer.Shit.If anyone sees them I'm dead.