Dear Angel #ToAllTheBoysContest

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Dear Angel,

I won't give out your name, I know you wouldn't want that.
I also know that you do not share the feelings I have towards you. You have a special someone and I would never try to destroy your relationship, but I cannot change the way I think about you. Believe me, I tried.

We met 2 years ago and I knew you were special the moment I laid my eyes on you. It wasn't the way you looked - although you are utterly handsome - but the way you were talking with that old woman infront of you. You were treating her with such kindness, I was amazed by that. You made her laugh and you made her feel special, I noticed the way she smiled at you when you left: her eyes were full of admiration and happiness. She looked at you the same way I look at you everytime I see you. You've been the same way with me, as well as every other person. You always treat people well, eventhough they don't always react the same way towards you. I have never seen you angry without a reason. I thought you were an angel, sent to this world to do good. I know it sounds stupid, but there are rarely any people that do the things you do and see the world the way you see it: Somehow naive, yet beautiful.

I know you never truly noticed me enough to think of me as more than an
acquaintance, but I have accepted that already. I rarely talk, I mostly observe. Everytime you pass me by, I feel my heart push into my chest a few times quicker. I feel my hands get a bit sweatier and I feel my mind racing with thoughts about you.

The day I met your girlfriend was horrible. You looked at her the way I wanted to be looked at, but I couldn't be angry at you, because I knew she was the perfect one for you. I wanted you to be happy and I couldn't help you with that, but she could. She made you smile, she made you complete. I accepted that, but it still broke my heart. A tiny piece of me wished that you two would find someone who would be even better for you. I wished this person for you could be me, but it was stupid to have these thoughts.

Now I write this letter and hope that once these words are not locked in my mind anymore but set free, that I will be able to forget about you and move on. Look for a person who is my own guardian angel and not someone elses.

I wish you the best. Maybe things would have turned out differently if I would have told you about my feelings, but I have to live with my actions and find my own happy ending.

Sincerely,

The Person that has loved you and somehow always will