regret rejecting me yet alpha?

Nicole

Nicole's POV

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So just like my mom said, we spent time at the mall.

By time I mean the whole day.

Alex has left my mind since earlier but it wasn't until i layed down and started thinking about what nick did. How Alec is trying to be with me. Everything really.

I want someone to lay down with.

I want someone to defend me in attacks.

I wanna have my one and only

I wanna love somebody.

But it's so hard when that someone that was supposed to love you, threw you based on your looks.

I may say I have the worst life and I know people have it worse than me, but what am I supposed to do when I've been hurt so badly to the point I can't really trust anyone?

"Nicole?" I hear a muffled voice outside my door.

"Come in" I yell and look up at the ceiling.

"Nicole.." the voice becomes more clear as they step in the room.

I look over and spot nick," oh..hi nick."

"Nicole, I'm so sorry, I don't know what I was thinking. I don't think I was thinking at all actually. But that doesn't make an excuse for my actions, please..forgive me." He whimpers.

If you never seen an alpha at his worst to the point he's half wolf, half man, his ears pressed to his head and his high pitched whine breaks then you'll feel heartbroken.

It's like a puppy that got abused.

My eyes soften and I sigh, "it's fine nick, don't worry, you're fine and I'm fine." I say and nod.

"Thank you Nicole," he breaths put holding his chest, " have a good sleep" he says and walks out, shutting the door.

I'm not fine, though I'll tell myself

I'm not beautiful, though people tell me

I'm not strong, though I make myself out to be

I'm hurting, though I don't show it

I lie to myself. And that's okay. It's okay to lie to yourself to make yourself okay. I never believe myself though.

Ever think of a world without you?

I do.

It's scary sometimes, I believe it would be a little happier.

Not so much pain.

Life is like prison sometimes.

It can be hell prison for some.

And it can be a paradise for others.

You never know what it's like to be someone else until you live their life.

Stop assuming, stop judging, stop hating. Don't say anything before you know what it's like.

I want to be strong for my pack and people around me, so my safe spot where I can sob out my issues is my room. Everyone has a safe haven. You just gotta find it.

Sometimes that's hard when your safe haven is the person who hurt you badly.

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IF IMMA BE 100% HONEST....I FORGOT ABOUT THIS ACCOUNT AND IK THIS CHAPTER WAS SOME SORT OF SADNESS AND REALITY FOR SOME PEOPLE? BUT I LOVE YOU ALL AND THANK YOU FOR READING MY STORY, WITH EVERY CHAPTER, WE GET CLOSER TO NICOLES ENDING!!

Word Count // 515 :(