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So long Dearie

Wave your little hand and whisper
So long dearie
You ain't gonna see me anymore
And when you discover that your life is dreary
Don't you come a knockin' on my door
'Cause I'll be all dolled up
And singin' that song
That says you dog, I told you so
So wave your little hand and whisper
So long dearie
Dearie, should have said so long
So long ago

Because you've treated me so rotten and rough
I've had enough of feelin' low
So wave your little hand and whisper
So long dearie
Dearie should have said so long
So long ago

Don't come a knockin'
I'll be all dolled up
And singin' that song
That says you dog, I told you so
So Horace, you will find your life a sad old story
When you see your Dolly shuffle off to glory
Oh I should have said so long...
So long ago!

Now that I looked back on it, I realized that moving in with Armitage probably enabled him better to hurt me.

For the next year after the party, Hux would beat me about three times a week and yell at me, out of anger towards Kylo Ren and other troubles. Since I had never known love or a relationship before Hux, so I thought the abuse was apart of the process. I assumed that it would eventually stop. 

But it didn't. It got worse. The beatings were almost daily, and it didn't stop with beatings. He would sexually assault me and sometimes come close to straight up raping me.

As I tried to cope with the physical and emotional pain that he brought, I started falling into old habits I had developed when my mother died.

I started self harming and I had attempted suicide multiple times. Hux, when he discover my body bleeding out, or me vomiting violently from ingesting poisonous chemicals, would always take me to the med bay, thinking it was some sort of freak accident, never suspecting I was trying to off myself.

Whenever I would get discharged, he would shower me in love and then after I had completely healed, would return to abusing me.

Occasionally when I was in medbay, Kylo Ren would visit me. He tried going into my mind to figure out what was going on, but I would block him out. Even without mind reading, he knew something was very wrong. He knew I was deeply troubled and tried to put in a word for me to Hux, but it never worked out.

I finally realized Armitage was abusing me when I was painting a picture of a lady covered in bruises, crying. She kinda looked like me. As I was painting, a person without a name messaged me on my data pad, saying "this needs to stop" it had a link to a website that helped people in abusive relationships. I read up on the traits of abusers and realized I was being mistreated. I decided that the next time Hux tried to hurt me, I was going to leave him.

I did exactly what I promised to myself. Later that night Hux came in, enraged about Kylo Ren and the days problems. He raised his hand to hit me, but I stopped it and told him I was leaving. He was furious at first, but as I started packing my bags, he realized I was serious, and began begging me not to leave.

You know what happened next, and now I found myself in my own new living quarters, similar to the one I had when I first arrived here.

My life was about to change.

Again.