Vampire Knight Love Lost

Chapter 5 Can you love me?

Chapter 5 Can you love me?

The next morning, Zero gets up and ready for class again,  Walking down the halls and into class. Still, no sign of Elena, Which starts to worry Zero. This wasn't like her. She never missed any time from school. She wasn't like Yuki. She was very smart. Straight A honor student. This was going to affect her grades. Not to mention everything else. Zero took notes for himself and also notes for her. Knowing sooner or later, they would have to talk.

When the second period comes and he walks into class, He spots Elena, Looking down and worn. Her normal sweet self not there. Zero just places his notes on her desk Not saying a word. She just looks up at him, with the saddest of eyes. He can tell She has been crying. Her eyes are bloodshot, Her face swollen, Eyes Puffy. It was a scene, he never has seen before with her. Not like on a regular basis with Yuki. He knew he really hurt her. The way she looked at him, he would never forget. If it wasn't for the school bell, Zero wouldn't of even know what time it was, That class was over. So lost in his own thoughts. Just watching her sit there through the class. Seeing how distraught she was. Even though she was doing her best to hide it, It was written all over her.

It was time for lunch, Elena just goes in the back of the lunchroom. Zero sitting at another table. Just watching her as she picked at her food. Not even eating it, Just playing with it. He couldn't help but stare at her. Seeing her long brown hair pushed up into a braid. Showing the pretty features of her face. He actually missed sitting with her at lunch. Her talking and him just normally listening, Pretending he didn't hear a word she said. Just another reminder of how he treated her. How she always came back. Yet this time, she was keeping her distance.

Elena sat at the back of the Lunchroom, feeling Zero's eyes on her. In a way it made her feel a little better. He was looking at her Thinking of her. Yet he didn't go near her. She knew he thought about her any time he took notes for her. Leaving them on her desk. She couldn't help but look at him. Sitting there alone, so wanting to join him. Just not sure he even wanted her to. How making love just made them further apart. Instead of closer like she thought. She could never be near him again without thinking about what took place. She couldn't just be his friend anymore. She wanted more of his touch More of him. She hungered for him in every way. Just feeling he didn't feel that way towards her. It made her sink deep into her lunch chair. Looking down at her lunch only made her stomach feel queasy. Not feeling hungry at all for the last two days.

After lunch, they both go to there remainder of classes. Both quiet and stay to themselves. Not sure what to do. Both scared to go to the other. Not sure what they will say or do. Yet both feeling terrible at the same time.

Later that night its time to patrol, Zero has a bit of hope. That she will patrol with him tonight. He actually missed her being there. It was nice having someone there. Someone watching over him. He knows she will be on the other side. Waiting for the night class to appear. He goes and stands there waiting to see her. Just nervous about what will take place. As he is walking there, he spots her Just standing there. Waiting for the night class. She turns around and spots him. Her heart leaping out of her chest. Zero can hear how fast it's going as he gets closer to her. He knows, She still cares.

"Elena, can I talk to you?" Zero asks. 

"After patrol. The night class should be out any minute." Elena responds.

 Trying not to show that she is dying inside. That all she wants to do is wrap her arms around him and kiss him everywhere. She stands her ground. Being quiet for the rest of the patrol. Once the night class heads back to there dorms. Zero and Elena walk towards the tree that started it all.

"I want to say How sorry I am for the other day. I know I hurt you." Zero says. 

"Zero, do you not know? How I feel about you?" Elena asks. 

"I have some idea. I just don't know if I can offer you, what you do want. I don't feel the same way about you. I care Just not as you do." Zero says.

 Elena just looks at him sadly a piece of her heartbroken.

 "Was the other night nothing to you?" Elena asks. 

"No, please don't think that. It was special. To be honest, I can't stop thinking about it." Zero admits.

 Zero touches her hand. She moves close to him wrapping her arms around him. He knows he is done for. She looks up at him and places a kiss on his lips.

 "Zero I love you. I will take you anyway, I can have you. Even if it's just for sex." Elena says looking at the floor.

 "You don't mean that. I know you want more. I don't want to use you. I don't want to hurt you either." Zero states.

 "Can we try? Maybe you can grow to love me?"Elena asks.

 Zero doesn't know what to say to that. He has already hurt her enough. He knew he missed her when she wasn't around and he did crave her sexually. She opened a door, He didn't want to close.

 "I guess we can give it a shot. Just I don't want you to get hurt." Zero replies.

Elena not even hearing that last line. She just lunges towards his lips Kissing him, Letting her hands roam his chest. Zero wastes no time in picking her up and bringing her back to his dorm room. On the way, there she can't stop kissing him. Giving him passionate long kisses. Her arms around his neck.

 "What was he doing? He was doing this again Only to hurt her again. Fuck it. She is willing and I want her. " Zero said pushing down his thoughts.

Laying her on the bed in his room, This time Elena wastes no time in taking Zero's clothes off. Kissing him all over his body. The feeling of want filling him up. Their hands roam each other As she slides herself onto him. Looking into his eyes the whole time as she rides him. Harder and faster. His hands pushing her up and down giving her a boast. He kisses her neck and down to her breasts Enjoying her body Until they both climax.

 She lands on top of his chest Holding him close to her, Looking up at him, seeing if he was going to turn her away this time. Where he doesn't. He kisses her head and holds her tightly in his strong arms. Falling asleep peacefully with her. Trying not to think about anything, just enjoying the moment. That if nothing else, he found a woman that loved him and only him. It wasn't hard to enjoy her body. It was quite fun. Why not enjoy it? She was willing and so was he. He just didn't know how far this was going to go. If it was just sex for him, he knew, in the end, it would hurt her more. That this was so much more for her. She was doing everything she could to make him love her. It just wasn't that easy for him. The person he really loved was still in his heart.