What Can I Do For You?

Fear

You: Because I love you.

Oh Atua what have I just done.

Ouma: What?

You: Reread the message.

Ouma: I read the message, just...what, how, and why?

You: I probably shouldn't have said this over a text...

Ouma: It would have been nice.

You: It's been going on for a long time...these feelings. Ouma I'm sorry

Ouma: What?

You: I'm sorry

Ouma: I heard you the first time, why are you apologizing? Was it a joke after all? It's really hard to get sarcasm over text lol

You: It wasn't a joke.

You: I just...about Saihara and everything! I know it was probably a dumb idea telling you this so don't feel pressured to answer.

Ouma: Wait it's not a joke?

You: Why would I joke about that?

Ouma: Because there is no possible way.

You: Actually it completely is taking in the fact about the string, and the fact we've been friends for nearly a year

Ouma: Not good enough.

I gritted my teeth and grabbed a jacket as walked out of my house. It was actually an apartment and I stepped outside in order to not wake anyone up.

I called Ouma. He immediatly accepted.

"Kiibo why?" He asked immediately, "why what?" I asked and I heard Ouma groan.

"Are we going to keep going in circles?" He asked, "no, I get what you're asking now...I can't pin point an exact reason why" I admitted.

"Then you probably don't" Ouma told me, "glad we got this settled out-" he tried saying but I interrupted him "because I love the whole you, it wouldn't make sense just to say one part" I told him.

"You...this is lying...please say you're lying" Ouma begged, "why would you want me to be lying?" I asked.

"Cause I promised myself to Saihara Chan so I'm really a bad person if I start dating you! Even if I like you I can't!" Ouma screamed through the phone.

"And even if I did what if you died?! What if you left me all alone again like everyone else did?! I don't want to be alone anymore Kiibo! So stop it please!" He begged.

Ouma...

"Do you think Saihara would want you to live your whole life being miserable?" I asked and Ouma fell silent.

"I didn't get to know him much and that's a shame because I felt like we would have made good friends, like you and me....but if he loved you as much as you clearly loved him then he wouldn't want you to be in despair" I told him.

"Even if you don't want to be with me, I think he would want you to live Ouma, and do whatever makes you happy" I said.

"Do I even deserve that? It was all my fault you know...I was nagging him and teasing him and I didn't even hear it coming...next thing you know I'm being shoved and he's on the ground bleeding....heh....I wish I died" Ouma admitted.

"Of course you deserve it! Do you think Saihara would have sacrificed himself if he didn't care? He's still by your side Ouma! He still with you and you can move forward! There's hope ok? There's always hope...that's what I believe" I told him.

"How can you be so sure?" He asked his voice was cracked and dry, as if choking on air even.

"Well...I met you didn't I? This is all I've ever wanted...someone who saw me for me....and I got my wish. It took a while and it still hurts sometimes that pain but still! So I know one day you will be ok Ouma" I assured him.

"Ok" Ouma said, "ok?" I asked, "yeah...but sometimes you're so cheesy" he said jokingly.

"Aww come on! I just poured my heart out" I told him, "well you're doing it twice" he told me.

"What?" I asked, "when you meet me I want you to say it again in personal! Here's a warning through I'm six feet tall and have a six pack" Ouma warned.

"Wait...so is that a yes? Will you be my boyfriend?" I asked, "who knows, you graduate in a month right? Come visit me and find out you already have my address" Ouma told me and hung up.

I stared out at the city from that rooftop. I was probably smiling like a dork and like a cry baby I had tears.