My Short Stories

It's okay

I don't know what's wrong with myself.. everything to me... I'm awkward, scared, upset, but I just smile and say I'm happy.. my laugh feels empty recently.. like I'm asking myself why?? why am I hurting?? why do I laugh when I know it means nothing?? I don't wanna talk. I don't wanna smile. I don't wanna wake up and feel this way. I don't wanna do this. I don't wanna live, nor do I wanna die. My eyes hurt. My head hurts. My heart beats but for no reason. My insides feel tangled. So tangled that it hurts. My family tells me how precious I am. How much they dearly love me. I wish their words were enough to reach me but they never do. I just smile that empty smile and occasionally give and awkward thanks. They tell me this so why can't I see myself the way they do?? I wanna tell someone about my problems but who?? I can't tell my parents because I'm too scared and nervous. I can't tell my friends cause they'll act differently. I'm alone. alone is all I'll ever be...