Mine <3

#13

There is a part of me,
Which is staying alive just for you,
I know it isn't right,
But I don't want to be blue,
Because every night I just consider,
Letting the blood spill again,
Let the scars get deeper,
I can't promise you anything,
And you can't give me the world,
We give each other what we have,
And I need you.

I suppose you don't need me like I do you,
You're not mine but you used to be hers,
Although I'd never tell you,
I tell others I'll be fine,
And I want you by my side,
Where's my comfort in the undefined,
They can't read between the lines but you can,
I'm afraid my poison is running in your veins,
And the only comfort is you won't fall for me.

Your soft skin and those scars tell me what I need to know,
I can read every small displeasure along your skin,
You're my favourite book,
The tale I'll read again and again,
When others cannot read the story,
I won't share it,
It's your secret and what comes to you comes to us,
What comes for you haunts me too,
Your ghosts are mine and it's double the hurt keeping me up.

My head falls upon the pillow and sleep eludes me,
Every waking hour so close,
Close to you,
Close to my heart,
Wherever you go I'm close to you,
Holding my heart I'm stupid in love,
But why would I tell you,
When you could never love me back.

I know I'm a mess and you're not okay,
And waves crash over us,
I know we taste the same salt,
Drowning and soaked,
I'll swim to save you,
Until the day I die,
I'll maintain my sanity to help maintain yours,
I don't know if you'll still be here,
I don't know if I'll last as long as you.

Can you remain to put up with me,
Remain to brush your fingertips lightly over my scars,
Remain to wipe away my tears,
I'll remain every night to hold your hand,
Do my best to protect you from the pain,
I know I'm not much and I know my heart is a wilting rose,
But we all end up alone and I would change your fate