BROKEN

I drank your poison.

TWO YEARS LATER...

It's been two years since me and Josh have been dating... And he's been changing...

Everytime I try to walk up to him and his friends, he always ends up acting like we aren't dating. He ends up talking and flirting with other girls right in front of me and acts like I'm invisible.

Well news flash Josh, I'm not...

I want to date him, I just feel like he doesn't want me. The way he used to want me. Before everything about him changed.

I feel like I've been drinking his poison.

He's toxic. He's my own type of drug. My own type of endless maze that I keep finding my worthless self getting trapped in.

I can never escape him... No matter how many times I've tried. No matter how much I want too, I just can't.

I always find myself feeling weak to my knees. Butterflies in my stomach. Sweaty palms. I can't bring myself to do it.

I can't handle anymore of this pain. Anymore of this heartbreak.

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I saw Josh in the hallway and he walked up to me. I walked to my locker and acted like I didn't see him. He walked up to me.

"Hey babe"

"Hey"

"What's up with the small talk?"

"Small talk? What small talk?--"

"--THERE!! That's the small talk"

"No it's not... Now if you don't mind I'd like to get to class..."

I closed my locker and began to walk away before Josh grabbed me and stopped me in my tracks. I slowly felt him turning me towards him.

"What's going on with you lately? You've been acting weird..."

I was to open aback by what he just said.

I've been acting weird lately...?

"Wait... Your saying that I'm acting weird lately?... No, you are Josh... I'm not the one going around flirting with other guys and acting like we're not dating... You are, not me..."

I turned around and proceed to walk.

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I finally got to class and I sat down next to my best friend Layla. She looked at me like as she studying my expression as if looking for something, and whatever it was, I think she found it.

"What happened Y/N? Why do you look like your drained and half-dead?"

I looked at her as my eyes start to water. Her eyes softened and she pulled me into a long embrace. I was trying to stay strong, make it look like I didn't care about what Josh was doing or the way he was acting. But deep down, I know I couldn't. It hurts to see the one you love, reject you and your love for them. It hurts and it makes you feel like you drank their poison.

I hate feeling this way.

I felt the warm tears run down my cheek.

Layla then tightened her hug on me.

"It's going to be okay Y/N... Your okay..."