People said the best time to contemplate is in complete silence. That's the time when people can reach deep into their minds that were preoccupied with thoughts and plans-to do this and that, things we face in daily life. That is the time also to start recognizing our inner-self that is laid dormant at times because we are too busy to listen to things around us.
But silence sometimes can kill you,
for spending too much time listening to the condemning voices that come from within.
Kihyun doesn't delve in the past or regrets.
At first, his status and his self-confidence managed to do this well. Instead of contemplating in silence, he went to the bar and had sex. Men, women, he didn't care as long as he's happy.
Was he happy then?
Yes, a part of Kihyun screamed out loud, but another part of him whispered quietly that maybe, just maybe, he wasn't really that happy.
So here he is now, standing quietly in the balcony and enjoying the view from the balcony in peaceful silence. He indulged his mind and soul in the fresh scents of cherry blossoms that wafted in the air, basking himself with anything rather than filling his mind with all the troubles he has.
In times like this, he admits that he feels lonely and fragile, especially when he's alone with his own mind, and nothing to distract him from the cry of his soul.
He hates being weak, hates being so vulnerable,
he hates the fact that he is a carrier instead of a breeder, a son that can make his father proud. He hates that he is the one who must suffer the consequence of his late sister who ran away without thinking about him,
he hates that he hates his sister but also misses her at times like this.
He remembers how close they were as they shared things together. They played, laughed and cried together and nothing could separate them apart.
Until one day, she met her half, her significant other.
That day, Kihyun had to swallow the truth that his sister had replaced him with someone and chose to be with that someone and abandoned him alone in this world,
Replacing her fate to be wedded with Sohn Hyunwoo, the first heir of Sohn Group, to save the future of their companies and to secure their life in the hands of the cold-hearted, the stern offspring of Sohn family.
Kihyun sighs, the agreement actually is not quite bad. Marrying Hyunwoo is the best arranged-marriage decision, that man is the definition of a young, handsome and wealthy man. Everyone will kill to be in his position right now.
Yeah, they will.
Kihyun scoffed at his own thought. He admits that Hyunwoo is .... intriguing. Challenging, perhaps?
Well, it's challenging at first, but now when his brain is freshened by the air, he can think clearly and finds himself disappointed at his state.
He does not love the man. He does not have any feelings towards him but hatred. What on earth he was thinking at the time? Throwing himself to the man voluntarily?
Kihyun groans. Great, now he will think of me as one of those sluts begging for his cock.
"You're here." says someone. Well, speaking of the devil,
a handsome kind of devil himself, Sohn Hyunwoo, wearing his grey-fitted suit, standing behind Kihyun. His voice resonated through every cell in Kihyun's body. "I am."
Hyunwoo tilts his head, he just sometimes doesn't understand the man in front of him. There are times when Kihyun looked like he couldn't wait to shove himself to him in a very obscene and vulgar way and there are times, like this, when he keeps his distance and away like he's near but his mind is elsewhere.
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ANOMALY [ Showki & Wonkyun 18+]
Fiksi PenggemarTwo brothers in unwanted relationships. A stranger and a rich heir as their partners. Son Hyunwoo, firstborn of Son family, the proud of family, his fate has been decided even from the start. Son Hoseok, the second and the last child of Son family...