[ Reflection ] I NAMJIN

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Namjoon's P.O.V

Who was he?
Will I ever see him again?
I need to see him again
Why was I so rude?
God Namj-

"Namjoon," Yoongi interrupts my train of thoughts waiving his hand in front of my eyes. "You good? You've been out of it ever since you came home?" He asks leaning back down into the couch across from me.

I simply nodded, "yeah it's just something that happened earlier while I was at the book store," I state picking up my glass and taking a sip of the warm gold liquid. The alcohol burning my throat as it went down.

"Well as I was saying," the older grumbles as he continues. "Cheers to both of us, for getting this far and accomplishing so much."

He clinks his glass with mine, taking a drink from it after. I offer him a slight smile my thoughts about the boy i had seen earlier being too much for my mind to handle.

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It was night time, and both boys were promptly in their room after a night of "celebrating", meaning they both drank until one of decided it was enough and called it a night. Normally it would be Namjoon to call it quits however, Yoongi was that one to take responsibility this time, when he had noticed that Namjoon was casually drinking cup after cup, his mind still consumed by that mysterious man, not a care in the world about how much alcohol he had already consumed.

It left him laying in his bed awake at 3 in the morning still thinking about him. Still thinking about the boy with bright blonde hair. Round chocolate eyes, soft pale skin. How although the man had such broad shoulders he still managed to look so small and thin. But most importantly the smile that he gave Namjoon, when he walked away. His soft, pink, plump lips that curled upwards into a slight curve, his milky white teeth barely peeking through.

Namjoon was awfully shocked about how he vividly remembered the appearance of the man, what he looked like down to what he was wearing. How could he not remember any of it when the oversized bright yellow jacket the man was wearing complimented both his hair and skin tone. How despite being a pretty tall man, the fit of his sweater made him appear smaller.

Namjoon cringed at his weirdness covering his face with his hands as he breathed in. Why could he not stop thinking about this man?

Yes the boy was attractive, Namjoon wouldn't deny that.

No he wasn't questioning his sexuality, Namjoon knew very well that he was attracted to men. He wasn't necessarily gay, but he's had a boyfriend or two in the past as well as a couple of girlfriends. He never came out to anyone, he would just date whoever he liked. Not putting a label on what his sexuality was.

Yoongi didn't mind, considering he's dated guys before as well, and was currently dating his boyfriend, Hoseok. Namjoon envied the two, how cute they were with each other, how bright of a person Hoseok was, which brought out the goofy, sweet side of Yoongi. Hoseok had really brought out the best in his best friend and it made Namjoon extremely happy to see how content Yoongi had been as of lately. The only downside to them dating was the fact that they couldn't publicize it, due to Yoongi being a global "superstar", and Hoseok being the head of a super famous dance group. The two always commented that it didn't bother them, but Namjoon knew that it wasn't true, that the couple for once wanted to go out in public, showing affection for the other, holding hands, kissing one another and not have to worry about what would come from it.

The younger wanted that so badly but It's what scared him. His job came with a price, and he didn't know if having a partner would be worth it. Not to say that he hasn't secretly dated in the past. Hoseok had set him up with one of his friends, and group members before, Jungkook. The relationship didn't last long when both members agreed that they got a long better as friends than lovers. It sucked but he ended up getting a new close friend out of it. Not to say that he didn't have friends. The fact that Yoongi and Hoseok were dating meant that Namjoon, would see a lot of Hoseok's friend, in the end becoming close to them and calling them, his friends as well.

Namjoon breathed out, wanting to catch some sleep. However the thoughts in his head consumed him too much, he knew that tonight would be long, considering 15 minutes had only passed since he last checked his phone. Finally accepting that he couldn't sleep, he started going through his socials. Checking up on the world seeing what they had to offer and or brag about. It wasn't long until the bright screen of his phone irritated his eyes. Opening them and closing them as to get a sense of relief until at one point he no longer bothered to open them, and just let sleep consume him.

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[AN//
So just a little insight of Namjoon's life and thoughts, kind of a filler chapter kind of not.
Hope you guys are enjoying the story so far!

Also I would just like to add this photo because Hoseok is literally the most perfect human being in the world.
Tell me who you're "bias" is lol ( I hate saying that but I also hate asking who your "favorite" member is)
Mine is without a doubt is Hobi I just love that man so much 💜