Random Song Lyrics I Just Made Up

Dying

I am horrible
I am ugly
I am stupid
This is what I say to myself on a daily basis
Nobody is finds me attractive
I am so alone
So lonely
The silence is deafining
That is why I replace it with screams

I hate reality so I make my own full of blood and scars
I love ripping into my skin and seeing the thick wine flow
It hurts me though
But it is the only thing me happy
I enjoy the pain tracing over the scars that remind me of happieness
All around me have died
So the house is silent
I hate the silence

So I replace it with blood and tears and screams
The tears are for my family that died before me
People see these scars and they and ask me if I am okay
I say I'm fine but they what that actually means
It means I am sad cause I'm so lonely
It means I am happy cause I am cutting
It means I don't know what to with my life
It means I feel like I am dying every night
But in a bad way

I can't handle the silence
So I must replace
But it's always round the corner
It won't fucking leave me alone
I am 17 now
And I still haven't had my first kiss
So I am hoping when I did
It will finally happen

Death will be my savior
It will stop the horrible silence
Death will be my savior
Cause it will give me a kiss that ends me
The 2 things I have hoped to happen
Will finally happen when I jump up and let the cord catch from my neck