Save me from you

the trauma

*Tony pov

we arrived to the hospital and they took Miracle in and did scans and check ups on her.

Me and Erin had no choice but to be reffered to the waiting room while Mr.mayson goes in see whats going on.

sat by the window and just prayed to god she's fine. I am the one who dropped her, even though Terrence attacked me, im still was the one holding her.

Erin took a seat right next to me and placed her hand on my shoulder

"Everything is going to be ok Toniyah, my brother can just get stupid and out of control like that. Ever since his real daddy went to jail, he's been coping with drugs and only been getting worse. My mom tried to put him in counseling, she tried putting him therapy, and even a mental ward but everytime we think he is ready he just goes into this psycotic stage that nobody wants to see. tonight was your first time seeing that so im glad your aware" she says

I honestly thought Erin didn't like me or sum and now she being friendly.

"yeah...i guess" i shrugged

"So...while were here why don't me and you talk" she says

"About ?" i asked

"you. Where you came from and why your adopted.?" she asked

i sighed

i always get emotional when i have to explain myself but here goes nothing

"When i was born my mom died. She was already weak enough and could barley carry me any longer. So i was premature. after her death my father grew pain and anger and around the time i turned 6 thats when he started abusing me. mentally and physically. he would just get so drunk and start cussing me out for no reason. I figured ignoring him and staying away from him would help but that only made him pissed even more." i tell her

"so what happened how did you get out his custody and into adoption?" she asks

If India wouldnt have told the cops that day i attempted suicde, that my dad beats on me everyday they probably wouldnt have never known and i would probably still be getting beating's by him. India really looked out for me. I miss her so much. i broke down crying thinking about her and just wishing she was here. i feel lousy and stupid for doing her like that. of course i was upset but i didnt want her to die and be tooken away from me. She was the only real ass person that knew what i was going through from the jump.

"tony" she called

i wiped my tears.

"My bestfriend..... saved me. She told the cops everything even when i begged her not to. She did. i just wish i was there to save her when she got gun down" i said

"what happened to her?" she asked me

"she got shot..... she was hanging with some guy and they were doing some shit with him and they got into it with these gang bangers who are some mexicans and instead of him they ended up shooting her and she died at the scene" i told her

"damn" thats all she could say

"Well, i wanna apologize for the way ive been treating you and im just not open to new people but hearing you out and seeing that your cool, i wanna give you a chance and get to you know you better....as a sister maybe?" she asks

"yeah.....i guess thats cool" i tell her

"do you need a hug?" she offered

"yeah...." i wiped my tears again and we stood up and we hugged.

"you maybe new but your a good person and you desetrve alot better then what you had" she says as she comforts me.

"Thanks" i tell her

"no problem." she says

"So what was your bestfriend name?" she ask

"India....India Becenios" i tell her

"oh thats her? i heard about her death, i just didn't know how she died. Im very sorry for your lost" she says

"Its okay, she's in a better place now and i know she is watching over me" i tell her

"right next to your mom" she adds 

i smiled

"ok girls, i just got through leaving the room" mr.mayson informs us

"what happened is she ok?" Erin asked

"she had a very bad concussion and there operating on her, but they say with a couple of minor procedures she will be fine." he explained.

"thank god" i said in relief.

"so...i know its a school night so Erin i want you and toniyah to go home and get some rest and let your mother know the news while i stay over here watch over Miracle" he says

we agreed and left.

i didn't knew Erin could  drive but she was doing a good job getting us home.

We arrived home and mrs.mayson was up talking to grandma jay.

"thank goodness you two are back" mrs.mayson hugged me and Erin.

"How is Miracle, since Your faher act like he cant answer his phone" she says

"She had a concussion, so the doctors got to do some minor operations on her, so daddy is staying there with her." Erin tells her.

"Oh my god... my baby" she starts to cry

"Its ok mom....she is going to be ok" Erin tells her.

"i just feel horrible because i wasn't here to stop none of it" she says

"ma, its all good, everyone is okay. Trust me" erin says surley.

she then looks over at me and embraced me into a hug.

"Toniyah i want you to know that none of this is your fault, and charges are being pressed, and your just a victim. I know with the situation with your father and all and im so sorry you had to witness what terrence did tonight, and i can assure you it wont ever happen again because he is going to be locked up for awhile" she tells me.

"its ok, Mrs.mayson, i understand. Im gonna go to bed though, my head feels a bit cloudy." i tell her

"ok goodnight" i said and went down the hall and crashed to sleep.

i was mortifed and just confused as hell. still hurting from My mom's death, my fathers violence, my bestfriend death, josiah playing me, these emotions are just attacking me left and right.

sometimes i wonder when is love ever going to come at me right.

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