Save me from you

Don't know what to say

*Tony

"Josiah....?" I questioned

"I'm so sorry,  I didn't plan this at all toniyah. I wish it wasn't true"

I sighed

"You sure it's him? "

"Yeah , I mean  he was the last guy i had sex. To be honest i ha e no feelings for him what so ever. I just wanted to luck and that's it. We used a rubber and everything. "

"Maybe it's not Josiah.  Maybe it's someone else" I prayed to god it was.

"No... He was the last person. I know this may seem hard to understand cause you and him are talking now but it is what it is. I'm just gonna abort it. I Don't have the strength nor the support to take care of a baby

As much as I wanted this to be untrue and didn't like this I couldn't let her go through with that. I'm not that wicked of a person. I guess accidents happen.  

"You aren't gonna tell Josiah? " I asked

"What's the point?!?!  He is never going to accept it. He hates me with a passion. I don't want shit to do with him. He's yours anyways.  I'm just a hot mess"

"Just think about it for a few days.  Let's this mellow out for you then if you still wanna get an abortion ,  it's all on you" I said to her.

"I guess your right. I'm just gonna think about it and then make my decision to keep it.  But please don't tell Josiah.  I Don't Want him to know." She says

I sighed

We were just getting on the right track and now I feel like we're getting knocked off

"Yeah, I can do that"

"I'm sorry" she says

"What you apologizing to Me for?"  I asked

"Cause at first i didn't care about you being apart of our family.  I couldn't stand it. But now that I'm use to you, i just feel like I'm throwing your life in another problem, when you've been through so much"

"listen Erin, I'm not even really upset as I want to be.  You just need to take it slow and figure out  what your going to do. But if don't wanna tell Josiah yet, I feel as if you should at least tell your mom" I said

"Are you kidding me?!? I'm not trying to be put out like, Terrence. I may do fucked up shit but i have my limits."

Obviously you don't if your pregnant.  That's what I want to tell her

"She is gonna find out" I warned

"I just need tone to figure this out. " she said

I shook my head and tried to calm my self down because this hetic.

*******

*a couple of days later*

"Focus all your negative energy into that box. Don't pressure it in there but simply take your time and let it travel through in your mind. "

This suicidal class is now starting to effect me. These techniques she is showing us, Is conning in handy.

My anger has been calm and soothing and under  a stable mind state. 

We ended class with a breathing exercise and was dismissed

"Hey excuse me" I turned around to see a nice looking young teenage boy holding my phone in his hand

"You left this sitting on the table when you signed out"

"Thanks" I smiled

"Can I get your name? " he asked

"Toniyah, but people call me Tony"  I said

"Cool, I'm Maze" he said

He had some pretty hazel eyes and have braces. He was mixed I could tell cause of his accent.  His light skinned complexion is what really made him stand out.

{Picture of Maze is in the mm}

It was awkwardly silent.

"I'm gonna get going, my boyfriend is coming to pick me up" I said

I could tell he got a little discourage but I didn't know what else to say.

"Ight, well I guess I'll see you later then" he licked his lips. God....

I nodded and walked off.

That boy is cute as hell. It must of been his first day because I never saw him here. I wonder why he is here.

I exited the building and waited patiently for Josiah to pull up.

Once he did I got in the car and he drives off

I kept on trying to prevent myself from blurting out Erin pregnancy.

"You ight?" He asked

"Yeah I'm just a little sleepy" I said

"Yeah me too, I'm a little high" he says

"Then why are you driving? " I questioned

"See you ain't listening,  I said a lil" he says

"Josiah you don't need to be driving at all if your 'a little high'"

"Look you ain't my mama, I can do whatever I want" he says

"Stop talking to me like that." I demanded

"Like what?!? I'm just letting you know, don't hop in my ride and start giving me orders the fuck you thought this was Tanisha"

"nigga I should steal off on you. Stop this car cause you tripping. "

"Nah you staying in this car with me"

"Josiah I'm not playing stop this fucking car!" I attacked him

"Man get yo mother fucking hands off of me"

The car swerved over and flipped.

After that everything went black.....

******

I woke up to an annoying machine beeping.

I opened my eyes to a room full of unfamiliar people.

"Toniyah your...your awake" some woman walks in

"Doctor's she is awake!"

The doctors came running in

"What happened? " I mumbled

"Oh well baby , you got into a horrible wreck  and been in a coma for a week. We was scared you might not ever wake up"  she says

"We?"

"Yeah, me, Erin, miracle,  and my husband"

"Am I suppose to know yall?" I asked

"Yeah .... honey  were  your foster family"

"Foster family? .... what happened to my real family?  Matter of fact where are they?"

"Toniyah,  you... you don't remember?" Some yellow boned teenage girl asked. I'm guessing that's Eveny or Erin, however this woman said her name

"No... I Don't know anything, nor do I know any of you"

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Damn Tony caught amnesia from that car wreck.

This when book is about to shift sides I can tell you all that much.

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