Sebastian woke up to the sound of whispered conversation. For a moment he lay in confusion, then it all hit him as hard as walking into a wall. An unwelcome feeling passed through him and he pushed it away making himself feel the anger that was hidden deep inside only to find that it lead him to the same feeling that had struck him the night before, when Nick had told him about the incident as he was now calling it in his head: guilt. He hadn't been able to shake the feeling and it was eating him up from the inside. He had been flirting with one Blaine Anderson for a week now and hadn't uttered a word to his boyfriend about any of it but when someone who was supposed to be straight kissed Nick he went running to Sebastian. He felt numb.
The whispering grew louder, snapping Sebastian up and calling the two boys' attention to him. He stood up, rubbing his eyes and looked around. David walked towards him with worry as he mouthed for his roommate to get out.
"Sebastian?" The boy in question hummed in acknowledgement, "Are you okay?"
Sebastian was quiet, thinking, "No." he croaked after the silence between the two became unbearable.
"You came in here last night looking as if your parents had just died."
Sebastian froze slightly at the irony before letting out a choked, humourless laugh but he quickly sobered at the thought of Barry. What would he think if he knew about Sebastian's advances on Blaine? He shook away the thought, refocusing on David who was now looking extremely nervous and worried. "Thanks for letting me sleep over David, but right now I really just need some coffee."
"Seba-" David began, but the boy was already through the door and in his car on the way to Lima Bean.
Barry wondered though the halls of Dalton, finding his way to the Warblers, only to find no-one there. It was strange since usually the entire club was standing around or he would walk in on a mass performance, but today the room seemed to be completely empty, not one Warbler in sight. Sighing Barry turned around only to be faced with Thad. The other boy's cheerful expression quickly changed to concern as he acknowledged Barry's tear stricken cheeks.
"Where's Sebastian?" Barry asked, ignoring the other boy's concern.
Thad shrugged, "I don't know. Hey, man, are you okay?"
"I'm-" He swallowed, "I need to talk to Sebastian."
Thad stared at him before nodding, "Yeah, okay. He's probably at Lima Bean. I can drive you there if you w-" Barry was already gone. He raced down the halls to the street, hailing a cab, he rushed to the Lima Bean. The only thing keeping him from a breakdown being the thought of Sebastian's firm embrace as he cried on his shoulder.
Meanwhile, in Lima Bean, Sebastian sat on his own drinking his now cold coffee, as he fought the tears threatening to run down his face. He looked up to see the New Directions and remembered a conversation he had with Blaine that morning about the regionals setlist. A deep anger and frustration sparked within him and he smirked, making his way over to the table , cold coffee still in hand as he heard Rachel finish her sentence his smirk widened - perfect. All heartbreak now forgotten.
"Does he live here or something?" Kurt asked Blaine before turning to Sebastian, "Seriously, you are always here."
Artie cut in before Kurt could continue or Sebastian could reply with something equally as stupid, "Why don't you think that's a good idea?"
Sebastian's eyes twinkled with mischief, "Because the Warblers are doing MJ for regionals."
And with that their hate for Sebastian grew tenfold, and so did his eternal self-hate. His eyes rose from their angry red faces when the bell of the coffee shop rang and Barry walked in. He quickly wrapped up the banter with the New Directions and turned around using the fire escape. For some reason Sebastian had been putting off speaking to Barry. It felt like he would somehow be forced to blurt out his advances on Blaine. So he ran, not noticing the fact that his brother looked like absolute shit.
Barry sighed, holding in a sob as he looked frantically around the coffee shop. Running a hand through his hair, he walked over to the barista and ordered a coffee. He sat at a free table with a sigh, reaching for his cup when his phone let out a blaring ring. He answered only to have Vanessa's voice, panicked and hurried, scream a location for athlete practice before hanging up. Barry sighed and downed his coffee before calling a cab.
The finals for the athlete competition were also being held in Ohio however they were being held in Lima. Vanessa had started going crazy with practices nearly twice a day. It was understandable though: the other team were supposedly extremely good, and very competitive. That day though, Barry just wanted. to curl up into a ball and cry to his brother. The strange thing was, Barry wasn't thinking about his ex-girlfriend at all. His mind was simply set on Iris and Cam, and the fact that in five minutes he'd have to see the 'best friend' he'd walked in on with the love of his life.
Nick was in the library. It wasn't an unusual occurrence but that day he wasn't doing homework or hovering above a book, he was crying. The tears kept flowing but his sobs had quietened a while ago. That was why when he heard sniffling he knew it couldn't have been him. Hesitantly, he wiped his tears and stood, making his way to the other side of the bookcase where he found a familiar blonde curled up and sobbing in his lap. Nick's heart exploded and he tentatively kneeled down so he was sitting beside the boy before wrapping his arms around him hugging Jeff supportively. They sat there for a while, Jeff crying and Nick eerily still. His thoughts were warring. He knew why Jeff was crying, deep down, he knew, but he didn't want it to be true, so he asked anyway.
"What's wrong?"
Jeff gulped, "Y-yyou won't tell anyone," He looked into his best friend's eyes, "Will you?"
Nick took in a breath, eyes blown wide, "I-I would nev-" He broke off as he realised he already had, and tears threatened to fall, "I told Sebastian actually."
"Wha- Why?" Jeff asked, "Why him, of all people?"
Nick looked down, ashamed, "Because he's my boyfriend, Jeff. I can't kiss other boys when I'm in a relationship."
Jeff's head cocked to the side, "But I kissed you, Nick. It doesn't count if you didn't initiate, respond or have f-feelings for the person you're kissing."
"M-" Nick licked his lips, looking into the. other boys eyes as he took his hands in his, Sebastian forgot long ago, "Maybe I do have feelings for him."
Jeff stared, he didn't react at first then a large smile formed on his face, both the boys problems and issues forgotten, their heads leaned in close tilting so that their lips fit perfectly with each other. Nick released Jeff's hands and placed them on his chest while Jeff's hands cupped Nick's face. The brunette climbed on top of him so that they could gain closeness. The kiss stayed steady but somehow became deeper with every second, then, finally, Nick pulled away. His head rested on Jeff's chest, his face in the crook of the blonde's neck as they lay there, in perfect peace.
As the hours turned to days Sebastian saw the New Directions more often and it was from there that they formed a deep hatred for each other. It had been a week since 'the incident' as he like to call it and he had successfully avoided any interaction with Nick, blinded Blaine in the process, whilst also admitting to it on tape. He then went so far as to threaten Rachel Berry with an edited picture of her boyfriend. Why? Because he was angry. He was angry that Barry was here, he was angry that Nick and Jeff kissed, he was angry that Nick told him about it but most of all he was angry at himself. For cheating on Nick and not coming clean about it. The past week had been...busy, to say the least.
The real damage came at Scandals though, when he practically told Dave Karofsky to commit suicide.
