Questions

Hyunjin

Hyunjin had a bad crush, a crush that could ruin his life and many other important peoples lives as well, but the man couldn't cheat fate or his heart.

"Why? Why me? Why him?", Hyunjin questioned himself endlessly.

Sitting on his bed Hyunjin could only think, "out of the hundreds of thousands of people roaming on this earth why him?"

He made Hyunjin feel different. Like a new person. Sometimes angry but erratic. He was one of those people that Hyunjin couldn't help but to laugh at the dumbest and smallest things with.

But here's the problem, the man that Hyunjin wished to be his lover already had a boyfriend. And get this, his boyfriend was Hyunjin's best friend.

Hyunjin and Felix have been friends for many years, all the way through high school and university. Through their first jobs and breakups. Not to mention when they dated for a good 2 years just to realize they are better off as best friends.

Hyunjin didn't know what he would do without Felix but if his need for Changbin keeps growing he might have to learn to cope without him. Felix was the kind of person he could talk to about anything. But not this. he could hurt Felix like that.

He would watch them be affectionate and pretend to not care but then to long for his touch moments later. It would hurt him, not being able to love changbin as passionately like Felix. Watching them touch. But just being in changbin's presence was so strong and sometimes overwhelming that it made him smile no matter how he was feeling. Hyunjin had to smile and laugh.

It has been this way since him and Felix broke up in high school. Felix stayed single during his senior year of high school and all through university till he met Changbin. They started dating around their junior or senior year of university. And every weekend since they moved out of their dorms and into an apartment together, Hyunjin was invited over for dinner and drinks.

Sure it hurt, but he loved it because he got to see Changbin. It hurt that he knew he wasn't going to find the same affection changbin had for Felix. But as long as he could see changbin happy, Hyunjin was happy.

The dinners and drinks were always good. So were the conversations that followed. There was very little tension between changbin and hyunjin as he didn't want to get too close. But that tension between the two was easing. As changbin and hyunjins relationship improved, Felix and changbins relationship seemed to deteriorate.

He didn't know what to do about this "crush" only to keep pushing further and further to where it wasn't a problem for him and Felix the best he could. This was the hardest thing he could do.

All he knew is the Changbin made him feel different and that he longs and needs that feeling more in his life. He needs Changbin. He became hungry for the sight of Changbin, and anxious for the weekend