Shattered Glass (Plance Story)

《7》

TW: Self harm/suicide mention

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With that, they headed to the bathroom, Pidge sat on the toilet and Lance was looking at her, wide eyed at the sight before him.

Cuts, scars, and bruises covered his girlfriends arms, some new, some old. They weren't too visible on her pale skin but some seemed to hint purple and blue.

Lance felt his heart sink, all this time the person he loved was still hurting herself and he didn't really noticed. Yes he noticed the constant tugging of her sleeves or the way she flinched when her arm was grabbed but he thought she was cold and maybe someone  had grabbed her in a not so gentle way. He never brought it up though because he didn't want to hurt her.

"Why?..." He spoke, tears threatening to spill from his eyes and his voice was quivering, like a birds feather drifting in the wind. "W-why did you do it? Why didn't you tell me!?" His voice raised, causing her to flinch and start sobbing.

"I-im sorry!" She yelled, voice cracking. Her hands were shaking as if she were outside in the winter, in nothing but a bathing suit.

"Katie-"

"Its Pidge!" She gripped her hair, she's always been too scared to correct people, she went by Pidge. She never brought it up though... She was scared to loose her boyfriend if she told him she wasn't female and Pidge wasn't just a nickname.

"P-pidge... okay- listen... you should have told me. Is everything alright?" His voice was quiet and soft, Mama McClain walked in and started to clean her arm, she didn't say a word though, letting the children speak.

"N-no... everything's not alright. I-im scared lance!... S-scared to loose you, scared to go back to that damned mental hospital." She was shaking more, flinching as Rosa wrapped up her arm.

"What? You're not gonna loose me Ka- Pidge." He smiled weakly and cupped her face "Nothings gonna happen and I'm gonna stay here with you,  got it?" He kissed her

She didn't kiss back, being too shaken up.

"Why are you scared your gonna loose me?.." his hands still cupped her cheeks and she looked up into the ocean blue eyes she's grown to love.

"I-im scared you'll leave me because.... i-i don't think I'm female. But I'm- I'm not a guy either...." She looked down "I-i think I might be non-binary? Or possibly agender... I'm not comfortable being referred to as a girl, but boy doesn't feel right, pronouns don't bother me too much but... yea." She sighed "but you like girls..." she didn't wanna tell him the rest...

That's when lance chuckled "Hey Pidge, hearts, not parts. I don't care what you identify as, I'll love you either way. Do you want me to refer to you as they? Or are you okay with she?" He smiled more

Pidges eyes lit up a little "S-she is fine but they might be better."

He nodded and kissed her, this time she kissed back and Rosa interrupted with a cough.

"Care to explain to Lance why I found you in the ran with your arms bandaged and bloody then Pidge?" She looked worried as she crouched in front of Pidge.

Pidge tensed, rubbing her neck and shifted a bit, she decided she might as well tell him. "They... they were telling me I'm not good enough for you and..  my mother and matt- mental hospital... i-i can't do it anymore lance! I know I'm not good enough for you! I-i don't need reminded."

"I-im sorry for worrying you Mama and you lance..." She looked up at the two Cubans, lance looked a bit scared and worried while Rosa just looked sympathetic.

Over the year of being with Lance, she had learned that he lost an older brother to suicide so it didn't surprise her how scared he had looked almost the whole time.

"I-im sorry baby..." He started crying, pulling Pidge into a hug "I-i need to show you I love you more I'm sorry! I didn't mean it really. You mean the world to me. You're more than good enough babe, hell if anything I'm not good enough for you! You're smart, pretty, and super fucking sweet." He grabbed her hand, interlocking their fingers and kissing all over her face.

This caused the girl to giggle and smiled, hugging her boyfriend and shoving her face into his neck.

Rosa smiled "Breaskfast will be done in half an hour." She walked off after tgat, down the stairs and to the kitchen.

Lance was shaking, holding Pidge close to his chest and mumbling sweet nothings. Now he was scared to loose her. "I want you to stay here a few days... I'll have mama talk to your parents but I just wanna make sure you're okay..." His face was buried in the crook of her neck, words slightly muffled.

All Pidge did was nod, gripping her own shirt. She didn't speak until an hour later when her parents were on the phone with Rosa.

"I'm sorry..." she whispered, now curled up on the couch with lances arms securely wrapped around her.

"Don't be. You have no reason to be sorry Pidge. I want you to know that no matter what happens I'll always be here for you and that's the important part." He played with her hair, a soft hum leaving his lips.

Pidge stuffed their face back into lances chest, hiding there for the most part and yawning.

"Well, Pidge is okay to stay here. Colleen or Matt will be down with a week's worth of her stuff." Rosa smiled, she was great at persuading other parents.

"That's great!" Lance smiled, kissing Pidges head.

"I have one rule-" Rosa spoke, looking mainly at lance.

They both looked over at her.

"No sex while the children are home." She smirked, arms crossed over her chest.

Pidges face turned bright red, lances did as well but not as bright at Pidges

"Mama! You'll scare her away!" He huffed and rolled his eyes, holding his now laughing girlfriend.

"Mmm. Dinner is almost done." She hummed and went back into the kitchen like none of it ever happened.

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I'm brain dead when it comes to this. I'm sorry guys-
Any ideas of what should happen? Or ya know.

I might end it soon tbh, mostly cause I just wanna create the biggest thing of angst possible.
But if I go with the angst ending I'll make alternative endings.

But still, ideas on what should happen?