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sketchpad dilemma

I deeply regret from the deepest darkest part of my hippothalamus that you have to swim a long distance to reach considering that my heart is a black hole with emotions running endlessly all over the place the decision of not bringing my sketch pad along with my pencil case with me on this unplanned, rushed, and seemingly oblivious of my knowledge until 2 days before trip to a place -which is, might I add, very far from home- 

And now because of that decision that I regret so deeply making I am now in a need to draw something

But can't because of the very obvious absence of a thing I most deeply treasure and crave at this very moment a.k.a my sketch pad

Which I didnt put in my bag thinking "oh, it might be space consuming, and considering we'll come back very soon, i dont have to bring it because i will come in contact with i very soon."

But now im wondering if that was a good idea or not because I'm having second thoughts about buying a small sketch pad cuz my hands are itching to draw but in order to do that i have to buy another set of pencils and pens and highlighters which I cannot do at this moment because I'm broke af.

Why im broke, you may ask? The answer is simple, really;

I spent my 3/4 of my money on clothes.

Which doesnt surprise me because I was kinda expecting this to happen and my nonexistent backside was already visualizing it in my mind. No surprise there lol

And I really want to draw rn. And by really I mean really  want to draw.

I know what some of you are probably thinking: if you want to draw so badly why not do digi-art then?

I could always do digi-art but I suck at it:P

And I just recently bought a journal and I wanna work on it but the only thing I have with me right now is a brush pen.

I can't just calligraph my way onto journaling my journal. Right?

riGHt?

mY hAnDS aRe itChiNG tO dRAw dO yOU undErsTaNd thE lEveL oF iTcH thIs iS??!?

It's like that feeling you get when you're reading something and then you're suddenly stopped to read forcefully

And you live on, forever wondering what the next word on that paragraph in the story that you never got to finish was

That's how I feel right now

Guys send help