In love with the darkness

Chapter 19 Betty's POV

I'm still trying to rap my head around the fact the jughead is here in my living room after five years of waiting for this moment. I thought I would know what to say but I never worried about it because I didn't think it would happen, but now that I'm standing here it feels like I lost my voice and I could faint at any given moment. And that's when he asked the question I hoped I wouldn't have to answer.

"Wait if Paul isn't Evelyn's father... than who is?"

I really did not want to just tell him like this I really didn't want to ruin this. I needed a reason to jot answer this question. And that's when Evelyn interrupted.

"Um hello? Mom who is this guy?"

"He's an old... friend."

Even though he was so much more than a friend to me.

" hey look he has the same hat as me, that's so cool." She said with a smile.

"Hey mister where did you get the hat?"

"Uh I got it from my mom a long time ago she made it for me." Said jughead kneeling down to her height. He was always very good with children.

"Hah that's funny. My mom made this for me too." Oh no he was going to find out.

"Evelyn how  about you go play, I need to talk to my friend."

"Ok bye." She said in a cheery voice. He makes her happy already and she doesn't even know who he is.

"Jughead I have a lot of explaining to do, but when I tell you, you have to promise me you won't get upset. I have a lot of very good reasons for what I did.

"I won't but I can't promise anything."

"Jughead... Evelyn is your daughter."

"What?!! And you kept her from me?!"

"Jughead I had to!" I said with tears in my eyes.

"Why what's one good reason?!"

"Well for starters we were young and you had a whole life ahead of you and I didn't know if you would kick me to the curb once you found out. Second I didn't know if you even wanted a kid or not and I was scared! And third because I was getting threats! People were threatening my baby! And they were threatening you! And I wasn't about to let them torture you while I watched and then carve me stomach." I said the last part more calmly with tears steaming down my face like a river. I'm almost certain i look like a maniac with all my makeup smudged.

" oh my god" is all he could say. A few tears of his own had also slipped out.

"Who did this?" He said sounding more angry.

"Toni"

"Toni? Why? She married sweet-pea like two years after you left. They had kids but then sweets died." He said sadly.

"Oh so you think I'm lying now?! Why the fuck else would I leave the perfect life I had with you and the most perfect person in the world that I was going to spend the rest of my life with happily. Why the fuck would I put myself through all this pain of knowing where the love of my life is and being able to go back to him but I couldn't. Knowing that you probably already moved on and I'm still here just wishing that I stood up for myself instead. I wouldn't have done this if I didn't care you know why? Because I still fucking love you and I beat myself up every single day because of my decision and I know you don't feel the
same anymore but you could at least believe me." I said now the tears were coming so hard I could barely speak. He just stood there he didn't say anything it was trying to think of something to say.

"You should go." I say now extremely embarrassed about what I said.

"No betty please I need to tell yo-"

"No jughead just get out! Please. You shouldn't have come. This was obviously a bad idea and a mistake." I said as I pushed him towards the door. He tried to stop me and he tried to say things but I didn't hear what they were. He was finally out and I missed him like crazy. When I closed the dot I turned around so my back was against the door and I slid down it with silent tears streaming down my face. The way I wanted to reunite with him was supposed to be nice and sweet, and instead it ended like this and I know I will never see him again...