🌈Love without borders (Yoonmin)✅

Struggels

Jimin POV

I watched him dance until the song ended.
I clapped as I approched him.
He had a surprised look in his face as he noticed me going towards him.
"You watched me dance?" He said, a pink tint taking over his chubby cheeks.
"Yup"
Why does he blush so much?
"I never showed anyone my dancing before. Did you like it?" He looks to the ground probably thinking that I will mock him.
"It was amazing."I answer.
His usual smile appears as he hugs me.
"I'm also here to dance." I say breaking the hug.
"You dance?" He asks his eyes sparkling.
"Yeah, but I'm not as good as you are" I say, looking anywhere then up to Hoseok.

~timeskip~

It's almost been 3 hours of dancing together as me and Hoseok decide to take a break.
Out of breath we lay on the cold woden floor. I'm really exhausted but at least I'm happy like I haven't been in a while.
I look up at the ceeling trying to just enjoy this moment and not think about the bad things in life. But it's way easier to see all the bad things and be depressed, then noticing all the good and appriciating it.
Hoseok seems like he only thinks of good things, because he's always so happy.
"Hyung?"
"Yeah" He answers quietly.
"How are you so happy and cheerful all the time?" I ask curious about what he will answer.
"You know, I can be sad too. But I always try to see the good in everything and live in this moment. I don't think about what I've done wrong in the past, because there's no way to change it, so why thinking about it. I don't worry about the future, because I know that if I am gonna stay myself and don't change because somebody wants me to, I'm gonna be happy no matter what." He ends looking at me.
"I wish I could think like that too." I sigh.
"Tell me what's on your mind, it's always good to tell your thoughts." He says while showing me one of his little sunshine smiles.
"Well,... I feel like I'm not good enough for this world. Nobody wants me here. Even my parents don't care about me. I'm unloved. And on top of that, I can't do anything right. I'm bad at dancing, I'm ugly, I am always in a bad mood. Who am I kidding, everybody knows that I'm just the son of two rich people, who care about nothing else then money. I know it's no fun to be around me. You don't have to stay with me just because I'm all alone if you don't." I stare into the distance tears bilding up in my eyes.
I let the tears fall down to the ground listening to the sound when the tear meets the floor.

Suddenly I feel two warm arms embrace me and the next thing I know is, me laying in Hoseok's arms cudeled into his chest.
"Don't think like that" He whispers. "I'm always gonna be here for you I promise. You can always talk to me when nobody else is there. I'm gonna be glad if you would come to me because I really like spending my time with you. You're not ugly. Nobody is, and even if you were the only unattractive person on this planet I would still like you because you have a true heart, and that's the thing that matters. So don't ever think so low of you like that again. Got it?"he smiles stroking my back.
"Thanks" I whisper back while letting his words flow through my head.
Maybe he's right, maybe I'm not that bad after all.

We quickly change before saying goodbye.
I take the bus home listening to some music.
As I arrive I open the front door to find my parents standing there, anger in their eyes.
I try to run to the stairs but dad pushes me back as I hurtfully land on the hard stone floor.
I let them scream at me while trying to stay as calm as I can.
When they finally let go of me, I lock myself in my bedroom.
I take a shower before jumping into my pyjamas and crawl under the blanket.
My thoughts turn to think about Yoongi. I see his soft features in front of me, like he would be there. But he isn't. And he will also never look at me like I'm imaging it. Warmth send trough his sparkeling eyes while looking down at me. I know these looks are only ment to be for his boyfriend. But I still notice them and wish he would also look at me like that. But he never will. I can feel my heart hurting in my chest. I try to think of happy things, like Hoseok told me to as I doze off to sleep.